Make Me Break (n.h. + h.s.)(Punk!Niall)

Chapter Eighteen (Harry Styles)(MATURE)

Kay, so I'm putting badly written smut in this part. If you don't wanna read it, I'm putting a ~|~|~| before it. For those of you who do read it, I am warning you now that my smut sucks ass, and I don't even know why the fuck I'm putting smut in the dammed story.... So yeah. Bare with me. (As I reread it... It's not too graphic, so if you really wanna read it you can...)

Connie xx

Chapter Eighteen (Harry Styles)(MATURE)

"If you only had one day left to live... what would you do?" Niall asked, lacing his fingers with mine as we lay on my bed. I sighed, looking into his vibrant blue eyes...

"I'd spend it with you."

"Is that it?"

"Well yeah... You're the one I wanna spend forever with. You're my one and only Niall." I whispered, still looking him in the eyes. Something flashed through them, even though it was only there for a mere second... I saw guilt. 

"You're my one and only too Haz... Together forever and ever." He kissed me softly on my cheek, unhooking his hand from mine. I raised my eyebrow at him as he did this, he never let go of my hand...

"Is something wrong Ni?" He shook his head, but I knew he wasn't telling me the truth. I was smart enough though to know not to push it. He'd tell me eventually right? He offered me that smile, the one that seemed to make me fall all over again... and I couldn't help but smile back. 

"You know I love you right?"

"Yeah... I love you too Ni." 

"Just... Promise me that whatever happens... We'll stick together?"

"Of course Ni." I kissed him softly, smiling at the feeling.

He was mine... and only mine.

He still didn't trust me, that much I could tell. I can understand where he was coming from, he did in fact believe that I cheated on him...

But what if he actually knew the truth?

What if he knew that he was the one to in fact... Cheat on me?

What then? 

Would he hate me even more for lying to him about Lizzie?

Or will he actually start to realize that I was never in the wrong, and that it was him all along?

This was all just too confusing for me to handle. 

One minute he acted like I was an actually human being, a human being with feelings...

The next he treats me as if I'm the devil himself, claiming that all I do is break things...

When will he finally fucking realize that I'm broken too?

Why can't we just fix each other?!

Why is everything my fault?!

Where did we go wrong?

When did we stop being ourselves?

There was so many questions, but so little time to answer them. My time to tell Niall was running short, and I was afraid that if I didn't tell him soon, he'd hate me more than he already does.

Is that even possible?

I highly doubt it. 

They say there's a thin line between love and hate, but it seems that Niall has decided to run over that thin line with a fucking sharpie, making it thicker... bolder.