Chapter Thirteen
I kissed him back.
I don't really know why I did...
Maybe it was due to the alcohol running through my veins
Or maybe it was due to the fact I missed him.
I missed his touch, and his smell..
I missed Harry... So I didn't stop him... Instead I let my arms snake around his neck, trying to pull him closer to me. His hands rested on my hips, his fingers digging into my exposed skin. I felt his tongue lick my bottom lip, asking for entrance which I gladly allowed. My back touched the wall, and I just felt like I meant something...
I wasn't nothing anymore... I mattered...
"Wanna take this upstairs?" He whispered into my ear, and I only replied by eagerly nodding... Too long had it been since I'd felt like this. He took my hand, and dragged me to one of the upstairs bedrooms, attaching his lips to mine once more when we reached one. My back hit the wall, and I let a small groan escape my lips. His kiss was leaving behind a trail of fire, and I was just begging for him to touch the bulge that had formed in my pants.
"I love you Niall..." He whispered against my neck, and I froze. My mind finally returned to me, and I realized what I was about to do. He pulled away from my neck, his eyes filled with confusion as he looked at me.
"You okay Ni?"
"Get off me..."
"What?"
"I said get off me."
"I do-"
"Get the fuck off me!" I screamed, shoving at him. He let go of me,, his eyes wide with what looked like fear... and regret.
He regretted touching me...
Good... I regret letting him touch me.
"Niall... I'm sor-"
"Don't you fucking dare say that!"
"I didn't mean to make you upset...."
"Of course you didn't Harry! You never mean to do anything! You're always the victim aren't you?!"
"This isn't entirely my fault dammit! You kissed me back!"
"Don't you dare blame this on me! You kissed me first! Dammit Harry! Why do you fucking have to ruin everything?!"
"You're the one fucking ruining this!"
"You fucking cheated on me you asshole! Then you kiss me.... Did you really think by fucking kissing me I'd take you back?! Well newsflash Styles, I'm not that easy!"
"I never said you were dammit! Niall let me fucking t-"
"I don't want to hear anymore of your bullshit excuses you asshole!"
"Why are you so damn stubborn? I'm fucking sorry I hurt you Niall, but can't you see you're not the only one hurting here?!"
"You fucking deserve it! You deserve to feel hurt, but you seem to be the kind of person who doesn't feel pain."
"That's where you're wrong Niall... I'm just as much of a human being like you."
"Yeah? Well you don't act like one."
"If you'd just let me exp-"
"I already told you I'm not in the mood for bullshit. Fucking leave me alone Harry." I pushed past him, and stalked back into the party. The sound of the music hit my ears, making me flinch, but I needed to get out of here...
I needed to get as far away from him as possible...
"Ni? Where you going? Oh my god... Have you been crying?" Liam stopped me by the door, Zayn's arm around his hip.
"I'm going home... I'm fine Li." I held back a small sob, but I wasn't doing a very good job at it. Liam said something to Zayn that I couldn't quite hear, but I was more focused on keeping my tears in my eyes to really care. Next thing I know Liam's hand is grabbing mine, and he's pulling me out the front door. The frigid air hit my face, and that's when I finally lost it. I collapsed to my knees, pulling them to my chest, and just let it all out.
Tick tock goes the clock.
It ticks and it tocks
Taunting the person destined to forever listen to the ticking clock.
"You're okay Niall... You're okay." Liam whispered to me, holding me impossibly close to his chest. I just shook my head, crying harder as he said those words...
When was he going to notice I'm never going to be okay again?
Tick tock
Tick
Tock.
It's like a bomb, waiting to go off.
Tick
Tock
Tick
Tock.
"Make it stop!" I screamed, throwing my hands over my ears as that stupid voice appeared in my head again.
"Make what stop? Niall what's wrong?" Liam's voice sounded concerned, but I was having issues hearing it over the loud ticking of the clock.
Goes the clock
Waiting for the bomb to pop.
Tick tock goes the clock, waiting for the heart to stop.
Tick
Tock
Tick to the
Fucking tock
Why won't my heart stop?
Is it tuned to the obsessive ticking and tocking?
So should it not stop when the ticking and tocking stops?
Or is it doomed to listen to the ticking and the tocking of the ticking clock forever?
"Tick tock... Tick tock." The voice was shouting in my head, and I started to louder. People passing by on the streets stopped to look at us with wide eyes
"Niall!" I could hear someone calling my name now, but the voice inside my head was becoming too much to bear. My vision was beginning to fail... and with one final scream... I couldn't see anything anymore... Nor could I hear....
Only the ticking of the clock....
Tick tock
Goes the clock
It ticks and it tocks....
Till the bomb finally drops.
Tick tock
The truth will soon come out.
Tick tock.
Maybe then my heart will stop....
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