Make Me Break (n.h. + h.s.)(Punk!Niall)

Chapter Thirty-One

Chapter Thirty-One

 Eventually I was allowed to leave the hospital. I didn't want to wait for anyone to take me home, but the doctor refused to let me leave without at least one person. Liam was the one to pick me up, and I couldn't have been more grateful that it wasn't Niall. 

Liam didn't ask me any questions, he didn't even seem to want to talk to me. Instead he kept his eyes focused on the road, while I turned my attention to the passing trees. It was so quiet, but I didn't care for once. I craved the silence more than anything now... 

I liked it this way. 

I didn't have to explain how I was feeling to anyone, including myself. 

But eventually we reached my home, where my car was sitting in the driveway. I gave Liam a thankful smile, before climbing out of the car. I went to shut the door, and it was then when Liam finally spoke.

"Harry... Before you go.. I want you to know that I'm sure Niall didn't mean to hurt you, okay? I talked to him while you were asleep, and all he wanted to do was to get better for you... He loves you Harry, and I know that beneath all your hate for him right now, you love him too. I'm not telling you to forgive him right now, I'm just... Just give him a chance okay?" 

"You know what's funny about giving him a chance Liam? I have. I did, and I don't think he even deserves that."

"Please Harry.... He loves you."

"He sure as a funny way of showing it. I'm not going to listen to this right now. Bye Liam." I shut the car door, putting my hands into the pockets on my coat. I walked up to my front door, opening it, only to reveal my empty home. I took off my coat, putting on the rack, and well... I just stood there. 

I just stood there and let everything sink in. 

My hands began to shake, tears starting to form in my eyes.

My heart started to beat irregularly, and my knees felt weak. 

Everything seemed to be closing in on me, the walls getting closer... Caging me in. 

My lungs were tight, not wanting to accept the air that I desperately needed. 

I needed to get out of here... I needed to escape. 

So, I that's what I did. I grabbed the keys to my car that sat on the kitchen counter. I rushed out of my home, tears wanting to leave my eyes as I did so. When I finally pulled out of the drive-way, I just drove. I didn't know where I was going. 

I didn't know what I was doing.

All I knew was that I wanted to escape.

Escape from all this hurt, and heartbreak.

I wanted to escape from all the thoughts of him, but most of all I wanted to escape the memories. 

All the memories that had to do with him. 

I drove until my vision was blurred from the tears I was fighting back. When I couldn't see anymore, I stopped. 

I pulled to the side of the road, and finally just let it all out. 

I screamed, hitting my stirring wheel with clenched fists. 

I didn't care who heard me, granted I was alone on some deserted road. 

I screamed until I felt as if I couldn't scream anymore.

That's when I just went to crying, placing my forehead against the stirring wheel. My breathing wasn't regular, and I felt as if my insides were trying to escape as every sob did so. The sound of something vibrating though was what interrupted me. I looked up from the stirring wheel, my eyes swollen, and looked for the source of the vibration. I found it sitting on my seat, my phone flashing with Niall's name on it. 

I went to ignore it, but my finger slipped pressing the accept button. 

"Harry?" Niall's voice rang through the speaker, and I picked up my phone, putting it by my ear. A small sob escaped my lips, and I squeezed my eyes shut. 

"Harry... Baby? Where are you?" 

"Wh-When does it stop hurting?" 

"When does what stop hurting? Harry, seriously... Where are you? You're scaring me." 

"Everything. Everything hurts, and it's your fault. Are you happy now Niall?"

"Harry... I can't ap-"

"You're right. You sit there and tell me you're sorry, but do you ever actually mean it?" 

"Of course I do... I know what I did was wrong... I know it was." 

"Then why did you do it? Why did you take my heart and smash it into a million pieces? Why did you have to break me?" 

"Harry you know I didn't mean to... You know that I'd never mean to hurt you..."

"When are you going to finally stop lying to me?! When are you finally going to let me move on?"

"I swear to god Harry, I'm not lying. I know I have before... and god... I have so many times to let you go, but I can't... I just can't." 

"Even if it was the only thing I'd ask you to do? Even after everything I've done for you... Would let me go then?" 

"I don't think I can ever let you go Harry... and I think we both know you can't either. We're like fire and ice.... We're lethal to each other, but for some reason we can't stay away... I need you like I need air..." 

"But I don't need you... I don't want to need you. Can you please... Just let me go?"

"I can't Harry..." I let out another chocked sob, my head once again resting on the stirring wheel.

"I'm begging you Niall... Just let me go." 

"I can't and I won't Harry... I'm gonna fight for you. Now for the love of god tell me where you are." 

"I can't and I won't Niall. I guess you could say it's my turn to escape now... It's my turn to escape everything... The pain, the memories, but most of all you. It's my turn, and I'll make sure you'll never find me." 

"No Harry wa-"

"Make me break Niall... Make me break." And that's when I hung up.

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You guys better love me, I spent basically my entire day trying to write this (It's very difficult to write with a brace on... I've found that out, but I did it.)

New cover thanks to ZaynJPayne, so thank you for that, love!

Dedication: 

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My new Narry buddy. We founded the homosexuality church. Macklemore leads the choir, and Same Love is always playing the background. The bible is basically Lirry and Narry stories. It's pretty legit.

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PPS: Harry clearly wants Niall to let him go. Do you think Niall should respect his wishes, or keep fighting? Why or why not?