I'm so sorry || cth (discontinued)

I messed up

38|| I messed up

~Calum~

I wake up to the sound of two familiar voices arguing over something I wasn't able to hear.

I quietly groan as I sit up and look at my surroundings.

I'm surrounded by dozens of cushions and blankets, the sofa looking somehow empty without the usual sleeping boy that wakes up later than everyone else.

Once I stand my legs are already making their way to the kitchen, towards where the arguing is coming from.

I knock, ceasing all the arguing, then enter.

I'm met with three frustrated faces as they look surprised that I knocked on the door, as if they forgot I was even here.

I rock back on my heels, hands in my pockets. "What're you guys arguing about?"

When no one answers I loo over at Stephanie, for some reason looking... different?

She's got this guarded expression on her face, which most certainly wasn't fully there yesterday.

That's when my mind starts racing.

Did she hear Megan come in last night?

Is she going to throw me out?

I feel disappointed that she found out about me so quickly because I was enjoying the familiar company of my best friends.

"Why?" Luke asks, looking at me accusingly.

I gulp.

"Why what?" I ask, playing dumb.

Michael just rolls his eyes at me as he points to the door of the kitchen. "Get out of this kitchen, get out of this house, and most importantly, get out of our lives."

I'm left shocked, my mouth opening and closing like a fish.

I feel hurt.

When I don't make a move to leave, Luke glares at me- a glare that he's never used on anyone before, a glare that made me shtick back and made me feel smaller.

"We trusted you, again, and turns out it was just you playing one of Megan's games!" Luke screams at me, his face going red. "Get the fuck out of this house and don't even think about coming back again!"

I nod, because it's the only thing I could do, and start to leave.

"Wait," the voice I've come to love says, halting me in my tracks.

I look back at her with hope, praying they she'll at least forgive me.

"What did she take?" Stephanie asks me, her voice completely monotone; no sadness, no happiness... just nothing.

My hope is crushed as I sigh. "Nothing," I tell her.

Stephanie scoffs. "Bullshit," I hear her mutter under her breath.

"You don't believe me?" I ask, feeling myself getting angrier.

"Well obviously," Stephanie fires back in a duh tone.

I shut my mouth, realising why she doesn't believe me anymore.

"Now, what did she take?" Stephanie repeats, saying each word slowly and clearly.

"I don't know," I reply, using the same tone as her.

Stephanie sighs, putting a hand to her head. "Just leave."

I look down in disappointment as I leave the house, leave my friends, leave my happiness.

I've ruined everything.

•••

"Hey, Meg," I greet her as I enter her house.

"Hey," she replies in a bored voice.

I collapse onto the floor in front of her, sighing. "The plan didn't work."

She finally glances up at me with a new found interest.

"The plan didn't work?" she repeats my words.

I nod at her and I feel her mood suddenly shift.

She stands up, towering over me and looking scary as hell with that look in her eyes.

I stumble to stand up as I don't like how she was looking down at me, but she doesn't let me.

She pushes me back down while shouting, "You're absolutely useless! I asked you to do one thing! One thing Calum. And you absolutely failed at it! You're completely and utterly useless!"

I'm left shocked at her sudden outburst as she begins to attack me.

"Holy shit," I mumble as I back away from her.

"You know what?" Megan asks in this really creepy voice, completely stopping her actions. "Stephanie was telling the truth. You were just too stupid to believe her."

"You and Ashton always wanted to see the good side of me, I guess that's why you believed me."

She cracks a devilish grin as she tilts her head. "You're fault."

Megan carries on her previous actions and begins advancing into me as I back away.

Stephanie was telling the truth.

I'm so stupid.

Why didn't I believe her?

I almost feel like throwing up as I run out of Megan's house and into the rain.

I threw away my friendships for this girl I didn't even know anything about.

I threw away the person I cared for for this girl I didn't know.

I messed up.

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