In Love With An Outlaw

Heaven Is A Place On Earth

      I love being with Ashley, it's the best place. I want to be in that place everyday.

      I'm going to hang out with Des for a little while today. Too bad Kina had to go back home, she could keep Des company while I'm with Ash.

      When I met Des at the House Of Blues, why he picked there I don't know, but I'm not going to argue with him about it. When we sat down at our table, he started in on "the kiss" between Ash and I. I wish he would stop talking about it already. Yes it happened, get over it and yes I love Ash,deal with it.

      Des- Why did it take you this long to kiss him?

      That's one thing I love about Des,he gets straight to the point.

      Me- Des, drop it , ok? Besides he kissed me.

      It still seems surreal that it actually happened, but I couldn't stop smiling since it happened.

      Des- It doesn't matter who kissed who. The point is you didn't stop him from doing it. Besides you know you loved it, don't deny it.

       Me- I didn't stop Ash, because I didn't want too and I'm not denying anything. Yes, I loved I kiss and I wouldn't change a thing about what I did ether.

       I'm glad I said that, but I can't believe I admitted that Des was right about me not stopping the kiss. And then did the same about loving it. I've thought about that first kiss with Ash a million times and every time I have a smile on my face, I can't help it.

       Man, I can't believe Ash waited this long to do that. What happens now? I mean, I'm glad Ash made the first move, because I wasn't about to. He must love me to wait like that and did that when he did. I love Ash so much.

      After lunch with Des and talking to him about Ash and I a little bit, which was a little weird. I went back to Ash's apartment. I thought about some of the stuff Des said. I went inside the apartment to wait on Ash to come home.

     When Ash got back from hanging out with CC. I thought I would try and talk to him about what Des and I talked about. As soon as Ash walked in, I met him at the door and started telling him about how Des asked about "the kiss" and about how it took so long. Plus I told him about the rest of the stuff Des and I talked about too.

       Ash- Why did he ask about that again for?

       Me- I don't know, it's Desi we're talking about here. Besides he won't say any thing about it though. Plus he's just looking out for me, like any "little brother" would.

       Ash- I know how that is, CC did about the same thing today too.

       Me- We have the greatest "little brothers", don't we?

       He laughs than says, "Yes we do."

       Than he kissed me head and put his arms around me. I never want to leave this right here. I love it so much.

       There were still a few questions that I wanted to ask him, but I didn't want to ruin the moment. I will have to get answers to them sooner or later. I might do it tomorrow, we'll see, besides there is something bugging him. He hasn't told me what it is and he's trying to put off telling me it.

       Ash got up off the couch.

       Ash- Let's watch a movie. Which one do you want to watch?

       Me- You hardly ever want to watch a movie that I want to. What's really going on?

       Ash sighs and sits back on the couch beside me.

       Ash- We're going back on tour the day before Thanksgiving.

       Me- What? When where you going to tell me this?

       Ash looked down at the floor and said, "Tomorrow." I was so shocked and a little sad, I didn't want him to go so soon.

       I looked at him and asked him, "What am I going to do without you here?"

       I never expected him to give me this answer to this question, this quick any way.

       Ash- I want you to come with us on this tour.

       Me- Just curious, who are you going to be touring with this time?

       Ash- Avenged Sevenfold, Asking Alexandria, and Hollywood Undead.

       Me- That's so awesome. I'm there.

       I gave him a huge hug and had a big smile on my face then and I couldn't stop smiling.

       Ash- We don't have that much longer til than. We need to start packing now.

       Ash knows me so well, if I don't start packing now, I'll wait til the last second and forget something. Plus he likes having some kinda plan in place, sometimes it's a good thing and others it's not. Plus he loves to shop, a little bit more than me sometimes, if that's possible. I hope they let me off work to go with them. I really don't want Ash to go without me again.