In Love With An Outlaw

Hurts Don't It

-2 weeks later-

      I really don't want to keep the kids away from Ash if I don't have too, but if what I heard is true, it's going to happen. From what I've  heard Ash did both of the things that he said that he wouldn't do, lie about the kids and being drunk. I'm going to ask him and see about it, but if I can tell if he has lied and if what happened is true, it's done no more seeing the girls or right to them or the new babies. Yeah, twins again, just have to be careful this time, don't want anything to happen.

      Tyson is so sweet, he is helping out with everything around here when he can. We are about to leave to go on tour, the girls are happy about that, because of spending time with Tyson and the guys in the band, but I'm nervous though. All of this stuff is going through my mind. Will I be okay?How about the babies? I'm still going though, I'm glad Tyson will be there to keep me calm and everything. We are Just about done packing, maybe, to head out the door soon. I can't wait to o on tour again, in a way. I haven't done that in so long I forgot what it was like.

      I hope that Ash doesn't start anything, he is still in the kids lives, right now. What a father he is being, lying and drinking again, maybe. Man he needs as much help as he can get, but he is to proud to ask for it.

      A part of me will still loves him, but a part of me hates he has done and is doing to his family.  I wish that he could see that.

-An hour later-

      We are ready to go and start taking the stuff to the bus. We walk out the door, oh shit, Ash and he's drunk, great. Tyson takes the girls to the bus while I try to talk to Ash.

       Ash- What the hell are you doing?

      Me- What does it look like? The girls and I are going on tour with Tyson and his band for a while. And you need to loose the attitude.

      Ash- What do you mean? I'm fine.

     Me- Ash, you are off your ass drunk right now. That's one reason you can't see the girls anymore right now and I'm still thinking of taking your rights away.

      Ash- Oh shit, I've done it now.

    Me- Naw shit Ash. You've royally messed up. You did both of the things that you said that you wouldn't do and that we are going right now and while see you later. Maybe by then we'll see about everything.

      Ash- I still want to see my kids. ( crying by now) I don't want to loose them.

      Me- You should have thought of that before doing that same shit again.

      Ash- I'm so sorry.

     Me- Sorries won't get you anywhere now Ash.

     Then I walked away. I didn't like being that mean to him, but he needed a kick in the ass though. That man will never learn what to do. He needs to grow up and take care of his kids, but it sure as hell doesn't look like he will, not even any time soon. I I'm just tired of hoping and thinking that he will change at all.

       I'm glad that Tyson has stepped up and to help with them even if they aren't his kids. He is more of a dad to them then Ash has ever been to them. I still can't believe that Ash did that. He has never done that before, why he is all of a sudden going this? I don't know. I wish that he would stop doing that. He is not the same person that I first fell in love with. But I'm so glad that I have Tyson. He is the one that keeps me sane right now through all of this hurt.