In Love With An Outlaw

Everything

-3 months later-

      I thought that I would have lunch and spend a few hours with Andy and Jinxx. I need to spent some time with my little brothers.

      Me- How is everything?

      Andy- Ok. We miss you. Why don't you come on tour with us?

      Truly my little brother, pouting trying to get his way, so cute.But defiantly not getting his way this time.

      Me- It's all because of Ash.

      Jinxx- He misses you and the girls. He's not the same without you. He's become a complete mess. He's drinking more than normal and he hasn't dated anybody since being with you.

      Me- Will he ain't seeing the girls when he is like that, that's for sure. I'm not sure that I can even talk to him right now to even help the man. It's going to take some time to get any kind of trust back with him after something like that. Things like that just don't automatically happen over night, it just takes some time.

       Andy- I know, but at least think about it and try.

       Me- I don't want to give him false hope about him and I getting back together. I don't even know if I ever want to get back together with him or not.

       Jinxx- Please think about it.

       Me- I'll think about it when he pulls himself back together and stays that way.

       Just than the song Silent Lucidity by Queensryche came on the speakers in the restaurant. It was the song that was playing on my MP3 player and listened to the day that I first met Ash. I wish that song hadn't came on, I almost cried.I knew then that think defiantly had to change and for the better. I don't know how just yet, but I knew it just had to happen.

        Andy- Ugh,I wish that I hadn't said anything about it now.

        Me- It's not your fault. That stupid song had to come on. I still love the song, but it reminds me of the first time that I met Ash.

        I started fighting back the tears then. What the hell did I have to go through all of this bullshit.

        Jinxx- (taking ahold of my hand) Everything will work out. Don't regret anything that you did. Everything happens for a reason.

        Andy- When did you become such a wise ass?

        Me- Andrew Dennis Biersack, he's not a wise ass. He's a sweetheart.

        I just had to give Jinxx a hug for saying that. Sometimes he comes off as an old soul. I love that about him.

        I'm really going to have to think a long while and see about how Ash gets before I even consider taking him back or letting the girls see him again, if he's that bad.

        Me- I'm going to have to think about this long and had about taking Ash back before I say anything.

        Andy- We'll see about helping Ash about and trying to help Ash get his drinking under control so he can see his girls and maybe you again.

        Me- Maybe, we'll see.