In Love With An Outlaw

Too Far

      We got to the mall and went in. I didn't realize how huge this place was. There's a wedding chapel, amusement park rides, and so much more to try and take in. You need a lot of time to go through this place floor by floor. It was decorated for Christmas, there were carolers and my favorite, Santa Claus. ( Yes, I'm still a kid at heart. :) )

     I heard someone say that they to be a BVB fan until Ash got me pregnant. What in the hell does that have to do with their music? Damn, Why would they say that? Now I feel like I have a target on my back, a huge one. When they said that, I teared up, I almost cried. I even had my doubts about Ash and I being together. I thought for a second about breaking up with him over it. Jake seen the look on my face, the heartbreak, the sadness, the hurt, he gave me a hug. Ash and Jake both heard what that person said and Ash was pissed off. He got more pissed when he seen my face, how I was reacting to it. I haven't seen him that pissed before, he was ready to fight someone. Luckily Jake and I got him calmed down before he hit someone.Here I thought that I was the one that would lost there cool easily, but I guess not.

      We went, trying to forget the whole thing, and shopped for a few hours.I knew people were talking about us, even the ones at Hot Topic were talking about us. I was so used to people only staring at me, but talking like this is a little crazy. I started not caring about everything people were saying and started to have fun. Even Jake started to joke around with me a little bit. Ash was still a little pissed, but luckily Jake got him to start not giving a shit about what they were saying.

     We were walking around, talking and having fun, a few fans came up to us.They said that they were happy for us and not to listen to what the other people are saying. I talked to Jake and Ash and asked if they cared if the fans shopped with us for a while. They didn't mind that at all and the fans were so happy.

      The fans were about to leave until I told them to wait. Then I told that if they wanted to they could go shopping with us. They almost screamed, when I told them that. They went with us to shop a little more before we had to leave.

      I asked Ash if we could go to a few baby clothing stores while we were there. He said that he didn't mind it at all. He actually started smiling when I asked him that. :) It great to see him smiling again. :)

      After a few more hours of shopping and getting a bit to eat, we said goodbye to the fans and took pictures with them. They asked me if it was ok to send me a friend request on Facebook and I said it was ok. In cases like this, sometimes, I don't mind being friends with them on Facebook.

       Jake, Ash, and I finally get back to the bus, we put the stuff we got down. Jake and Ash wouldn't let me carry that much of the stuff at all. Probably afraid of me getting hurt. I wasn't supposed to lift anything that heavy for a while. I don't know how these poor guys have dealt with me this whole time up til now. Ash told me if I needed or wanted anything, to just tell him and he would see what he could do about it. He's so sweet. :)

      Andy, Jinxx, and Christian teased me about buying the stores out. But they seriously couldn't believe that we bought that much. I told they that most of it was for the baby.

      I can't wait to hold the baby in my arms. I don't care what it is as long as it's healthy. I know that Ash would love to have a boy, but I think that he would be happy if it was a girl too.  If it is a little girl, she is so going to have Ash wrapped around her little finger.

- 2 hours later-

      With every ones help, we finally gotten everything put away. We sit down and started talking about the baby and names for it. :)

      Andy- If it's a boy, what about naming him Andrew? Or Dennis?

      Ash-  Andy, come on, really? Besides what if it's a  girl?

      Andy- Really. Duh, Andrea.

      Me- Andy, no. If it's a girl, how about the name, Skylar Rose?

      Ash- I love that name. :)

      Me- I just thought of it, because of my cousin and my friend. Skylar was my little 3-year-old cousin's first name. Rose was my friend's middle name. I just thought that I would combined the two names and it would be a great way to remember them. ( As I started to trail off.)

      Jinxx- That's a very sweet thing to do. :)

      Ash- I'm with Jinxx on this one. It's a great way of doing something like that. :) ( He smiled and kissed my head.)

      Jake- I really hate to ask this, but what happened?

      Me- Will, Sky died from cancer several years ago and my friend had an car accident and she died.

      Jake ( Kind of tearing up)- Wow, I'm sorry, I didn't know.

      Me- Jake, that's ok. ( I gave him a hug.)

      Jake turned his head away from me so I wouldn't see him wipe a tear from his eye. He thought about his little nephew when I said that about my cousin.

      We talked about that and other things for a few hours til I fell asleep on the couch.