In Love With An Outlaw

Broken Hearted Again

-A few months later-

Well Tyson and I broke up, I lost the other baby, and Ash reluctantly gave up his rights to the girls. His place in the group is still up in the air. I feel bad about the girls not having Ash in their lives, but it was for the best.

Andy- I know it was hard, but it was the right thing to do.

Me- I hope so. It broke his heart, what heart he had.

Jake- He should have thought with the head on his shoulders instead of the other, he wouldn't be in this mess.

Me- I know, but the girls keep asking about him. They want their dad so bad right now. I try to tell them that he can't be here now, but they still want him though. I hope that it gets better with time.

Jinxx- Me too, but I don't know with them being around him everyday though.

Me- I know, but I can't keep them away from their uncles though.

Andy- We know, but I think I'm with Jinxx on this one.

Me- I wish that this was easier, but I wouldn't be where I where I am it was.

Jake- That's true. Just do what you think is right for the girls. We will be on your side no matter what.

Me- Thanks guys. I really do love you guys.

CC- We love you too Sis.

These guys really are the best family that I could ever ask for. Just sad that Ash couldn't see a good thing when he had it. Jake was right, if Ash would have thought with his shoulders instead of the other one, he would still be in the girls lives, but what is done is done and we can't change that.

-The next day-

The show last night was cool and the girls loved it. I just wish they understand why they couldn't see their dad after wards.

Skylar- Why doesn't daddy want to see us anymore?

Me- It's not that he doesn't want to baby, it's because he just can't legally.

Skylar- Court says he can't?

Me- Sadly, yeah baby. He signed paperwork saying his rights to the both of you are gone.

Skylar- So, no seeing our daddy? That stinks.

Me- Yes it does, big time.

I hope that this helps them even a little bit, because I don't know how else to explain it to them. I'm worried about them in the long run. They don't even want to talk about what happened that day with Ash. I can't believe that he traumatized them that badly, but I should expected it from Ash though.

-Later that day-

I told Andy and the guys about what the girls had said about Ash.

Andy- Man, I can't believe the girls said that much about him.

Me- I know, they still can't even talk about what happened that day.

CC- Yeah, but after what happened, I can see why.

Me- Yeah, it traumatized them so much. I hope that can talk about it one day though.

Jake- Me too. They were so scared that day.

Me- From what I've seen, it scared me. I can't imagine what it was like for them. I don't want them around their dad for that to happen again.

Jinxx- That would be a good thing for them.

Me- Sadly I can't get an RO on him, because he is in the band. I'm just going to have to keep the girls away from him some how.

Andy- We'll help you with that if we have too.

Me- Thanks. I might have to get you guys to do that. Anything to make the girls safe.

Jinxx- We understand that. Just let us know and you got it.