In Love With An Outlaw

Broken Hearted

-2 days later-

      Time to tell Ashley that I'm moving out and it's over. Man, this is going to be hard to do. But at least I got all of the girls and my stuff out of the apartment before he got there, do hopefully he won't try and stop me from leaving. I had Des and Kraven take the girls to the new place, I didn't want them to be here for that.

       When Ash got here...

       Me- Ash sit down we need to talk. This is never easy.

       Ash (walking the floor)- Oh hell it's over!

       Me- Yes it is. The girls and I moved out, so you can come back here. But it's definitely over. You can see who ever you want to and not have to worry about me finding out, because I don't give a shit about that anymore.

        Ash- What about seeing the girls?

        Me- We'll work something out about that later on. I have to go, Ash.

        Ash- Elvira, please don't go. I love you. Stay with me, please.

        Me- Should've thought about that before you cheated.

        I walked out the door and started crying. That was one of the hardest things that I ever had to do. I didn't want to, but I had to, I didn't trust him anymore. I just can't forget about it. I'm going to learn from this and move on from it. I don't know what to do about the girls right now. I still want him to be in their lives, but I'm not sure how yet.

         I really don't know what's going to happen from here on out. I could start dating Dave or someone else or no one at all. At least I have my girls. Why can't this be easy? Luckily they are to young to remember all of this stuff so that's good.

          I think Ash should get to see the girls like every other weekend when he's not touring and get to take them to the studio some too.

          It stinks that I have to do it, but that's the way it has to be. Him seeing the girls every other weekend and me having full custody of them. It won't be easy for him at all, but oh well. He might even think that I'm trying to punish him, but I'm not trying to. I just can't go through a relationship always wondering if he's going to cheat again or not.