Time; Don't Let It Slip Away

Where Would You Get An Idea Like That?

"Are you cheating on me?"

5 simple words that cut like a razor blade. 

My crying ceased as my eyes grew wide, and my heart stopped beating for a moment. 

Here I was, thinking the same thing he was, all along… 

I thought he was cheating, and that's why he was being so distant. 

"Oh my god, no!" I gasped. "Why would you ever think something like that?" 

"Because…" He took a deep breath and sat down on the bed with me. "That day we first got into the fight… I was wrong for being mad at you. I respect you and if you don't want to do something, I'm not going to force you to. You're my wife and I love you more than anything. But then, I went to apologize, and you were being very cold… and… well… Basically you were being a bitch. And you know that when I think someone's being cold and distant, I don't react well to it."

"Yeah, I know, but then yo-"

"Let me finish…" He put a finger to my lips, shushing me. "Then I saw you with Ryan in his room before the show back in Tallahassee. I know you guys are like brother and sister, but something seemed off. He was half-dressed, and the way you were hugging him… I got jealous and I didn't know how to handle it. And especially after Gavin kissed you, back in Vegas. That's what really started it all, for me. I've been trying to find a way of talking to you about this rationally before I went around accusing you and demanding a divorce."

My heart shattered into a million pieces, and my stomach flipped inside out. 

"Y-you…" I stuttered, almost unable to make out the words. "You wanted a divorce?"

"No, Mia." He chuckled, wiping away my tears before pulling me into a hug. "I was only considering it because I was convinced you were cheating on me."

"Steven…" I cried, burrying my face into his neck, so my mumbles were practically inaudible. "I thought you were cheating on me…" 

He smoothed down my hair, and rubbed my back.

"What?" He asked.

"I thought you were cheating on me, too." I sighed a little more loudly. 

"Why?" He asked, pulling me away from him so he could look me directly in the eyes. 

"Well… I don't know." I whiped the inevitable flow of tears that streamed from my face. "You started acting all distant and cold, and I got scared. You seemed a little more open around other people than you were around me. It really just seemed like you stopped loving me." 

"I could never stop loving you, Mia." He sighed, cupping my face in my hands. 

"Then why did you act like it?" I cried harder, pressing my face into his chest to muffle my sobs. 

"Because I was scared that I was losing you." He sighed, wrapping his arms around me. 

"But I don't understand how this happened…" I continued crying, letting out all the emotions that have been pent up for the past few days. "We always opened up to each other. We always told each other the minute something was wrong… Why are we not doing this now? I don't want to hide things from you. I don't want this to fail because we can't talk to each other."

"I promise you, we won't fail." He smiled, kissing the top of my head. "This was all a big misunderstanding. I was mad at you for being mad at me, for being mad at you. It's just a circle we were caught in. That's all." 

"I love you too much to lose you." I continued sobbing, as the room was spinning around me, mostly from the alcohol. 

"I love you too. And You won't lose me." He smiled and lifted my head from his chest.