Love does cause pain

The new cycle

🌱 Ivy's p.o.v 🌱

I was slowly awoken by a slow lasting kiss placed on my neck, must be easy to get to seems I have hardly any hair now. Harley's lips sent my mind back to the night before, last night was the greatest night of my life. Hopefully this is how life will go on from now on, maybe Harl will start a new cycle... one where she doesn't go back to that monster.

"Morning Harl." I turned around in Harley's arms to face her. I gazed upon her beautiful face, she looked to perfect to say she just woke up... unless she's been up for a while, maybe she was watching me sleep?

"Not so sure it's morning Red." Harley looked over at the clock on the wall, not long after she giggled and turned back around to look at me. I didn't even want to look at the clock, the only thing that mattered was that I was with Harl "Good afternoon Red." ...Dam.

"Worth it." I moved over to kiss Harley on her small button nose. Harley suddenly pulled her body as close to mine as possible. My face went red as Harl pushed her head onto my exposed cleavage, It hurt... a lot but the pain was worth it just to have her close to me. Last night Harl suggested we should take it slow, we both agreed... We've both been through a lot and quite frankly I didn't want anyone looking at my body in it's current state, last night Harl kissed all of the areas of my body that were undamaged by Joker which was more than anyone else had before, but compared to the amount of my body that he had damaged it wasn't all that much . I held her head where it was; it just felt so right, I started to swirl her hair in my fingers. "I love you Harleen Frances Quinzel."

"And I love you Pamela Hazel Croft." I smiled at Harl's response, she knew me, I've always wanted to be a Croft... I hated changing my name to hide from my parents. We just lay together for a while, everything was perfect, I was finally who I wanted too be, where I wanted to be and with who I wanted to be.

🕝 A while later 🕝

"Mor- Afternoon guys." The door creaked open ever so slightly. "I made breakfast... Well I made bacon and pancakes... And erm I ran out and got some fresh fruit and veg if you want some." I felt Harl start to move as soon as Phoebe said bacon... I guess we have the rest of our lives to lounge around.

Harl stood up and raced over to the wardrobe, quickly pulling out a tight green crop top. That's mine... two can play at that game. I stood up and stumbled over to Harley who now pulled on some black shorts. I looked into my wardrobe and saw a hell of a lot of green, red and black... Phoebe had some clothes here but they were mostly black and dark blue so it kind off went with the theme. I pulled out Harley's red and black hoodie, the one she wrapped my broken body up in the hospital, looks like Phoebe washed and dried it when we got in. I pulled out the longest pair of green PJ pants I could find, I hated my body right now I couldn't stand looking at my beaten body; I didn't want anyone else to see what he did to my body. I didn't want pity. I got dressed, feeling Harley watching me the entire time. I finally looked up and Harley held her hand out for me after she smirked at my choice of clothing, I placed my hand in her's and she pulled me downstairs.

We finally got downstairs and were welcomed by an overwhelming smell of cooked bacon, I don't really eat all that much seems I can just get my energy from the sun but today I figured it could help get up my strength. I don't want to have to live with these scars, I will do whatever it takes to get these wounds to heal without scarring. Harley dropped my hand and skipped over to the counter and picked up a plate, pancakes after bacon after pancakes were stacked up on her plate. Finally my bubbly blonde sat down on one of the counter tops and stuffed her face.

I looked around to find Phoebe and found nothing, I made my way over to the front door and creaked it open slowly. Phoebe was crouched down on the first step, with her head in her hands. I pulled the door open fully and Phoebe's head shot up. She turned around with panic etched on her face, it must be weird for a normal 18 year old girl to live with two criminals, one who is covered in healing bruises and cuts and also carrying The Psychopathic Clown's baby... and then of course there's me: she's seen me turn our kitten into a plant, she's seen me literally covered in my own blood and with an almost nonexistent pulse, she probably saw me mourning nothingness whilst I was under Crane's new toxin and she's seen me cry... so shes been through a lot and she's only been here just over a week.

"Ivy! Erm.. do u not like the fruit? I can run and get some more if you want. Just tell me what you want I can get it while you rest up. You shouldn't be outside its cold. Wait yes you should. Will being outside make you better faster. I can go get you a chair if you want to sit outside-"

"Stop! I'm pretty sure you forgot to breath the past couple of sentences ... In through your nose out through your mouth, just in case you forgot completely." I waited for Phoebe to catch her breath and continued. "Okay now?" Phoebe nodded slowly, I wonder whats got into her. "Why are you doing all of this ?!"

"I-I..." Phoebe scrunched her hands up and slammed then onto her knees repeatedly and lowered her head.

"Hey, Hey stop. Its okay. Just tell me whats going on..." I hated that Harl could always read my body language whenever she wanted to because of her being a psychiatrist ... I hated that I couldn't do the same to her and everyone else I cared about, Harley might act like a dumb blonde but she is smarter than anyone thinks, she is the hardest person to read... she knows what people are looking for and avoids making it obvious something is on her mind.

"It's just.. I-I'm tired of suppressing the real me. I-I want to be me. I don't want to think about how my true self could come across to others. I don't want to act like everything is okay when i'm burning up from the inside out. I-I I don't want more people to just walk away and leave me behind because they don't understand..." My eyes started to tear up and she began to cry into her hands... I understand. "They all leave. Please don't leave me like the rest, not for now at least. You, Harley, Catwoman and even Skylar your all like family now I had my reasons, just put yourself in my shoes. I'm fighting for you, for my family, remember that if its the only thing you remember." I pulled her in close and she stopped crying. Why would we leave her, well if I was going to leave at anytime I already would of with all the shiii- stuff she put me through.

"Were family now. No one is leaving you behind. I'm surprised you haven't run away from us yet with everything that's been going on, any normal kid like you would of just tested their luck with the elements."

"That's the thing Ivy... I'm not just a normal kid." Phoebe pulled away and turned to look at me with tears still stored in her light hazel eyes, she raised her hand and continued. "I'm not just Phoebe... I'm Phoenix." All of a sudden a flame appeared in the centre of Phoebes hand... She- she has powers?! Phoenix? My jaw hung slightly as I looked terrified at the flame... Phoebe has powers!

Thank you so much for reading I hope you enjoyed!!! Vote and comment below if you want toooo. I really don't know why it took me so long to write... It normally takes me longer to write nice parts where the drama is at a minimum so that's probably why. So stay tuned and I will update again soonnn. ~Jw