Love does cause pain

Please be okay

🌱 Ivy p.o.v 🌱

My heart was racing and breaking at the same time, how could Harley be gone again ... how could Selina be gone permanently. My chest felt tight making it feel like I could barley breathe. Out I needed to get out. They could be okay. I need to get to them right now.

My head couldn't function how it should, no time for a plan. Crouching down I pushed my hands against the mattress, searching for a spring ready to pop. Placing my hands either side of the raise in the fabric, I pushed my entire body weight down at an angle.

Teeth clenched together pushing at the mattress like I was giving it CPR, finally after manic sweet started to collect on my forehead, the spring tore through its cover. There was no time to waste on being proud, being grateful it worked, Harely could be gone forever and Selina could be dead. Not thinking for another second I dragged my palm across the sharpest edge on the spring that I could find, following the groves already deep within my skin. Letting my overly forced scream rip though my throat my hand wiped blood over the rest of my body. Using the spring to open up old wounds was not as easy. Bring back memories. Visions of the past. Possible outcomes of the future.

My head fell backwards colliding with the floor slowly. Selina could be dead. Harley could be anywhere.

Blood was slipping through my fingers almost as quickly as the time, no where near enough to kill me, but I wiped blood everywhere I could to convince the loudly approaching guards it was.

"Aw crap get the door open now!" Hearing keys in the lock was my cue to let my eyes drift shut.

In no time at all the door was opened and my only job was to let them pick me up, act lifeless no matter what. Even if they grab- don't tense don't tense don't do it don't tense.

"Too much blood we've got to get her to the med bay now." Eventually taking there rough hands of an open wound and throwing my ribs hard against a beefy shoulder, wrapping an arm around my waist.

Every hurried jump step, left my body ready to snap in two. My insides felt like they had been rearranged by the time the guard spoke again.

"Nurse!" Finally my body was flipped carelessly onto another spring filled mattress.

"Careful with her or she'll end up like the other one!" My mouth went completely dry and my breathing slowed, if I didn't know I hadn't lost as much blood as it seemed I could have sworn I was dying.

Intrusive cold hands peeled my jumpsuit away from my skin. Dainty fingers brushed across my body, tapping everytime there was an open cut, not just blood. Wiping over all my cuts with disinfectant made all the muscles in my body clench, still waiting for the worst to come.

"Not even half as bad as you looked... well might as well get you stitched up my shift should be over by now." The boots of the guards had trotted away before she even undressed me, talking to herself this whole time like that would get her a quick change of uniform if anyone heard her.

Fingers soft yet firm held my deeper wounds shut, I could feel the needle scratching at me not shaking but hesitant. Pressing the metal though my skin I felt my tounge shake against my teeth, as she went along it got less painful, as the numb parts of me got larger and easier to reach. She didn't rush but not long after she was carefully wrapping parts of my body up, small cuts and stitches just incase. Quickly after she took her leave I peeled my eyes open taking in the dim light. Raising an eyebrow I looked over the damage, definitely could be worse.

Flipping my legs over the side of this rickety bed, my body turned following the movement of my legs, and there she was. Scrambling to stand up I wipped my hair away from my eyes. Cautiously approaching her bed, holding my breath like I could steal the air out of her lungs, watching her body and waiting for her chest to rise or fall.

Her body twitched, I couldn't tell if it was her or if my eyes playing tricks on me. My chest couldn't take anymore uncertainty, quickening my pace I stood beside her bed. Trying to ignore the blood and bruises just under the surface of her skin, my hands wrapped around her cooling wrist. Pressing two fingers harder my body let out a relieved sigh.

Muscles tensed under my fingers and her arm was ripped away, as rapid panting filled my ears.

"No no Selina it's me. It's me Pam. I'm not going to hurt you." Selina's face turned and her chestnut eyes landed on me, pupils instantly constricting back to normal.

"Pam!" Her lips where left parted slightly as she looked at me, her eyebrows raised and she went to lean forward, before her teeth clenched and a primal growls slipped through. "Looks like. I'm. stuck here." Punctuating her words with gasps made me question my next move.

Looking to the floor, thoughts raced through my mind, maybe if I find Harley without Selina she will be safer. He thinks she's dead, but so will Harley... If I left her here she could really die by morning, yes the med bays are separated but it dosnt matter women can do just as much damage as men.

No, trying to find everyone's best outcome on my own hasn't worked upto now. Why not let her decide for herself. Looking back up at my closest friend clearly hurting and confused, I let the small smile on my face drop.

"He's taken Harley." The sound of my voice was more raw with emotion than I wanted, Selina didn't get to see the whole 5 seconds we were back together...

"Help me up. M-Maybe he hasn't got her yet." As she lifted her arms up, my body moved forward wrapping my arms around her.

Letting her chin rest on my shoulder I slowly straightened my body, small gasps echoed in my ears I could feel her abdomen tensing over and over again against my body. Letting one of my arms leave her back to search under light sheets to find her legs. First touching fabric then trailing down smooth skin, thinking that skin would lead me all the way the back of her knee my brows dragged closer together. There where thick bandages, almost hard too the touch. Looking over Selina's shoulder I saw her leg wrapped up tight, blood staining still somehow seeping through all these layers.

"Selina... can you wal-"

"I need to. Just help me up..." I could hear the uncertainty she tried to mask in her voice.

Guiding her legs towards mine, I felt the unwrapped smoothness of her. Putting my arm back around her I lifted her slightly and stepped back, her body shivered as it touched the cold floor. She whimpered in my ear and knew what that meant.

"He broke it... you-you can't wal"

"I-I CAN! don't you say that. i can . i can walk. I NEED TO! we need to get to her before he does."

"Your too late." Selina's jaw dug into my shoulder as I turned. "B-but I can help... if you'll let me."

Thanks for reading really hope you enjoyed. Apologies for the slow updates but I'm getting back in the swing of wasting a whole day choosing 5 word 😂. Planning to get atleast 2 parts out a month? Vote comment do whatever u want I guess until next time love ya's ~ Jw