Love does cause pain

No Second Chances!

🌱 Ivy's p.o.v 🌱

"Wait! That's it... Phoebe burnt through the lock!" I turned around, ready to march up the stairs to confront Phoebe that little bi-

"Red... I get it. She lied, but Red she's been through a lot. Could you maybe just let it slide, If she does anything else go for it but it's in tha past. I just want one nice day..."Harley griped at my wrist lightly. I didn't want to turn around, Harley's baby blues would melt my insides... Phoebe has to own what she did.

I span on my feet to face Harley, her baby blue eyes were sparkling... maybe she had a point, I can just talk to her about it tomorrow. We need to talk, to have a nice day whilst we can before the psycho comes looking for my family again. Harley pouted and let go off my arm, she wrapped her arms around her middle, the twins. She's thinking about them, what are we going to do? I threw my arms around Harls waist and pulled her in close, I placed a kiss on her forehead then let my head drop to her shoulder. Harley moved one of her arms from around the twins and used her now free arm to caress my hair, I wounder if she likes my hair like this. We stood there for a while until I felt my, Harls jumper get wet. I slowly lifted my head from her shoulder, I looked right into a blue ocean of unexplained sadness.

"Harley... whats wrong? " Was it the Phoebe thing? The twins?! Why is she so hard to read?

"I'm so sorry Red, he did all of this because of me-"

"No! Harl this is not your fault... You know who's fault it is? It's Joker. No one else is responsible for this except from him. Harl if you didn't go.... Harl, why did you go back to him?..."

"Welllllll when me and Kitty got back from the park P-"

🚪 Door knocks 🚪

I turned around to look at the door then back at Harley.

"I wonder who that is." I roll my eyes and head for the door, Harl trailing along after me not so far behind.

Selina needs to get a life why was she even her befo- oh... my bad. I pulled the door open to see two new additions to the family, one I considered real family wearing her familiar catsuit, as well as family by blood... my mother was standing before me it was weird having someone wearing such pedestrian clothes at my door. Selina invited herself inside, my Mother just stood there looking at me with her regretful green eyes.

"Kitty!" Harley squealed as she saw Selina, thankfully this time she wasn't close enough to temperately deafen me. I motioned my head for my mother to step inside, she stepped inside cautiously trying not to break eye contact.

"Oh... erm hey Mrs C." I closed the door and turned around to see Harl looking at my mother with worried eyes. I slid over to Harl and wrapped my arms around her middle, glaring at my mother weakly.

Living with Harley lowered the amount of hatred I could feel towards my mother. Everything my mother did for him Harley would do for Joker, but Harl left Joker so her kids can have a better life... my mother let him ruin me, she let him kill me. No matter how much I want to be a Croft, its not possible, Pamela Hazel Croft died in those woods all those years ago. No matter how much I want to hate her I can't, hating my mother is like hating Harley... I never blamed her for what he did too me, I just kept dreaming that one day she would pick me up from school early and we would run as far as we could. I wished she tracked me down to my foster home and told me she was taking me home, taking me away from everyone's hurtful words and abuse. I wished for my mother, the old one who tucked me in at night and read me my favourite book, Laura's Star. My eyes started to fill just thinking about the semi-not terrible days.

"I-i don't blame you for hating me Pammy-bear. I-i'm so sorry. I understand that you probably don't want me anywhere near your new family. Please give me a second chance Pammy. I won't let you down baby i'm so so sorry... I don't want to lose my baby again."

My arms slowly dropped from around the twins, if I was my usual self I would throw her out with out a thought to protect myself, but now I was weak. No matter how much I tried to tell myself I hated her I knew deep down I needed her, I needed to know if things could of turned out differently if he wasn't there, I needed to know if she could of been a real mother to me. I started to drift past Harley and Selina, my Mother could ruin our family... she could treat the twins like she treated me, I'm putting my family on the line for her, this could be the worst decision of my life. She had three tears rolling down her cheeks, my eyes were filled to the brim but my tears would not betray me. I won't let her believe i'm still the same old weak child she knew, I can't let her back into my life knowing that I need her, it gives her to much leverage over me.

"There are no second chances! I don't forgive you. I don't need you. You let Pamela Hazel Croft die. I'm not your daughter. If you want to be part of my family you earn it just like they did." I turned round to Harl and Selina who had there heads tilled towards the floor, they know its not easy to get close to me. I finally turned back to look into her watery eyes. "Betray me and I will show you why I really changed my name."

She nodded repeatedly, a smile spread across her face. She looked up at me with such a familiar pair of disarming green eyes and held her arms out for me. My walls crumbled and I became that vulnerable teen yearning for her mothers attention all over again, I ran into her arms at lighting speed like nothing ever happened. She wrapped her arms around me and started to caress my hair just like she used to do. I felt all of my problems drifting away, this is all I wanted for so many years even before He left me in the woods... all I ever wanted was this, just a simple hug.

"You will always be my little Pambear." I felt my jumper dampen yet again... what are we going to do?...

Thanks for reading I hope you enjoyed. Vote and comment if u feel like it... How does everyone feel about Ivy's mum? Is she trustworthy? Will she destroy everything Ivy worked so hard to get? leave your thoughts in the comments. I should update soon even though I still haven't done my assignment and its due Friday ..... oh well I will live hopefully. Until next time Love ya's~Jw