Obsessed

Chapter 9

Deep breath in. Then out. Deep breath in. Then out.

My eyes were trained forward and I could feel my whole body shaking.

Why?! Why?! Why?! Why?!

"Are you okay?" Kevin asked me from his driver's seat. My head snapped towards him in shock. I had forgotten he was there. Oh my gosh, I must look so paranoid right now!

"Oh..yeah, I'm fine." I said. Kevin squinted his eyes at me and I could see that he clearly did not believe a word I just said.

"Well," I said, and opened the car door, "thanks for the ride."

"Alright." He said then looked back to his steering wheels. I sigh. It was not so long ago that we were dancing and grinding on each other intensely, but now he could not even focus on me. Was I that much of a bore? Was I that undesirable? I could feel my insecurities going high, and that meant hurt was already starting to fill in. I was being over dramatic. Girls got rejected by their crushes everyday. Why could I not bear the fact that mines was fulfilling that?

Maybe it's because you always get rejected, even when you're not asking for anything. And that he, he who you have wanted for years, could never want an ugly creature like you in his entire life.

I stepped out of his car, keeping my eyes from his. I did not want to see his beautiful dark pearls, and not feeling hurt by the emotions that weren't found in them.

I was being too hurt from this whole crush thing.

I slowly walked to my front door, trying to ignore my parents' cars in the front lawn, which was causing my current state of fear. Light was shining on me and I looked back to see that it was Kevin's car's headlight. He was pulling out from my home's front yard. Even though it was dark, I could see him looking at me from his seat. Hurriedly I took out my keys since he was probably waiting for me to get safely inside, which was awfully sweet of him. This was probably the only attention I would be given from him.

Disgusted at my thoughts. I was a stupid, needy and filled with insecurities girl.

I unlocked the door and slowly got in, and closed the door silently. I walked into darkness. The lights were all off and I heard not a single noise. A presence of peace was settled inside the home. That was not going to last.

Maybe my parents were sleeping. If they were, luck was definitely by my side today, and all I would have to do was sneak into my room. Then get on my bed. There wouldn't be any questions since they probably thought I was sleeping.

No, they didn't. I could have laughed at my little stupidity. Knowing my parents, they most likely checked for me. And they wouldn't find me in bed or in my room, where I was supposed to be, doing homework or studying. At the thought, my heartbeat picked up. I know they know I wasn't here. And either way, I would have to deal with them. I just hoped it wasn't right now. Maybe tomorrow I'd have a decent excuse. But right now, I didn't.

I slowly and carefully walked up the stairs. I was finally close to getting inside my safe cave, and I still have not heard a noise. Maybe they were really sleepy tod-

"Sabienne?" The lights were suddenly switched on. "Kote'w soti, man moiselle?!"

I turned to see my mom in her long night gown standing on top of the stairs next to the banister. My heartbeat immediately started to beat fast with dread, against my chest.

"Oh...mom. Hey...I just came from.." I was doing a terrible job and my mom wasn't even beginning to waste her precious time listening to it, as she suddenly came flying down the stairs and yanked me up with her right hand.