James POV
When I received that message I immediately call her. I walk fast to my car, I dont know but I feel butterflies in my stomach bigla akong kinabahan at na excite at the same time. Why would she even send me a message like that? What could be the reason. Is she really feel na mahal pa niya ako? I called her several times but her phone is busy, maybe she has a phone call to someone.
I found myself infront of their house, I dont think Mark is home dahil walang na ka park na Bugatti Veyron sa harap ng bahay nila. That guys has a serious addiction to a expensive cars, his car cost almost $2.5million. Tsk hypocrite, mamamatay siyang hindi naman niya madadala sa hukay yung mga sasakyan niya. Well wala naman sakin kung bumili siya ng bumili ng sasakyan at sabay sabay niyang sakyan yun. I dont care! even to his existence. I space out to much about the bastard kaya hindi ko namalayan na tumutunog pala yung phone ko, Nadine is calling nag madali akong sagutin yung tawag bago pa mawala
"Hey!" agad kong sagot
"Anong nagyari sayo?" tanong niya
"What do you mean?"
"Mukang nag mamadali ka? Naistorbo ba kita? Tatawag na--"
"No! Of course not, I just... forgot to check my phone nasa car ko kasi" I cut her
"Ahh!!"
Then a fucking long and awkward silence past.. I really dont know what to say so...
"Sooo..About what you said" Pag sisimula ko
She still didnt answer.
"You still there?" I ask
She sigh and said
"Can I see you? as in now?" she said
Then boom!.. My heart why do Im feeling this kind of feelings Its so weird. I told her to wait for me dahil pupuntahan ko siya even if nilalamok naman na talaga ako sa harapan ng bahay nila. I guess Mark isnt really here dahil pwede siyang lumabas whenever she wants. I patiently waiting outside trying to count the minutes of my fake travel all the way here. When I think enough na yung time na nilaan ko para sa kunyari kong papunta palang, I called her and said that Im already infront of their house. While I was waiting, excited na excited ako. Parang bumalik ako sa pangliligaw even though hindi ko naman talaga siya niligawan. I think about the time nung ang sungit sungit pa niya, yung time na kasama pa namin si Alex, yung mga time na natutunan na naming mahalin ang isat isa. Having her in my life is one of the best thing happen to me, marami mang nangyari my fellings for her is just naturally strong na kahit na ano pang pag daanan ko para sakanya I still wanted to have her... At ngayon, ang sakit sakit isipin na hindi na siya magiging akin, I wanted to fight for her. First, I dont want her to be with a psychopath like Mark. Secondly, I cant live without her and, Lastly, I wanted to fight for her its simply because.. I love her and that what you suppose to do when you love someone. Fight for them, but think also if they are also fighting for you. Sa case na to setting Nadine free will stop the chaos. Mark will shut his motherfcking mouth, hindi na mahihirapan si Nadine pero mawawalan na ko ng saysay. Nadine brought my heart with her na kahit saan man siya, pupuntahan at pupuntahan ko parin siya dahil that is where my heart belong, to be with her.
Napaka sakit isipin na hindi mo na mabawi yung mahalaga sayo yung dapat sayo. Its like you saw someone broke a vase then ikaw yung pinag bintangan niyang naka basag and you cant do anything kasi everyone is in favor to that person. Yung urge mo na mag explain, yung gustong gusto mong linawin yung sarili mo, yung gusto mo ipaalam sakanila yung side mo pero hindi ka nila pinapakinggan kasi bias sila. You get what I mean? yung feeling na ang sakit sakit pero bakit ang unfair parin, yung ikaw yung nasasaktan pero bakit ikaw yung walang kakampi, yung ikaw naman talaga yung tama pero bakit ikaw yung lumalabas na mali parin. Yung feeling na gigil na gigil ka na pero wala ka naman talagang magagawa kasi wala naman may pakialam sa concern mo, sa gusto mo, sa nais mong mangyari. Its really unfair pero sinong hihingian mo ng tulong, wala.. ikaw lang mag isa, until fighting will kill your strength. Mawawalan ka nalang ng lakas and for all the efforts.. wala na, wala lang, ganun na lang yun. Nothing happen.
