STUCK IN TIME

(xxvii) Book 1: Chapter 22- Kit-Cat

AYANA'S POV

"So are you just going to stand here? I mean I am totally okay watching you bite your lip or do something else which tells me you are nervous. But enlighten me as to what is it because you yourself were insisting that this cant be waited." Miles says to me and I take a deep breath ready to break up with him right ten minutes after we got together. How amazing is that?

I am currently standing in Miles's room, and I have mentioned what I am up to. The party downstairs is in its full swing and I have dragged him up here so that I can get this over with as soon as I can.

"I lied." I say.

"About?"

"Ten minutes ago, in front of all people, I said I would love to be your girlfriend. I lied."

He looks at me with his forehead creased in confusion and I take another deep breath and start to explain him.

"I did develop a crush on you in the beginning. I admit that. And I went on two dates. But you see, I don't know if this sounds sensible, but I knew you are not the one for me hardly two weeks after we met. And I am extremely sorry I led you into this and made you think I am interested."

He doesn't say a word in reply instead keeps staring me like I am a ghost. I look down, like I did some awful thing. I can't meet him in the eye because I think he is the first person I am hurting. I hate hurting people. But this is necessary.

"I said yes for the sole reason that I led you to this confidence of asking me like this. So its entirety my fault. But I honestly have to do this because I literally don't feel a thing like that. I hope you understand and maybe forgive me." I say with a nervous smile.

"We will still remain friends though." I say but when he doesn't reply I awkwardly and nervously add, "Of course if you have no problem with that."

I wait for three more seconds and then turn to leave.

"Wait Ayana." Oh so he speaks. "Do you like someone else?" He asks.

"None of your business although but no." I reply rather rudely.

"Then I presume we can give this a try?"

HAS HE NO SELF ESTEEM?!

"I plainly told you I am not interested. I think you were not listening to me."

"I was. But cant we? I mean if you don't like anyone else then you can give me one chance. I will prove it to you that we are worth it." He comes closer to me and reaches for my hand but I step back.

"Please?"

"Miles I can't experiment a relationship. I am sorry but I am not that type. I am typical old girl who doesn't like it this way." I explain trying to keep this as civil as possible.

He sighs. "Okay. If that makes you happy. But can you do one last thing for me?"

"Depends. What is it?"

"Don't tell anyone we broke up just now. No one! Its kind of even worse than being rejected in front of the crowd."

"Yeah." I say. "Of course I am not gonna go downstairs and announce like you. To be honest you could also save to do this in a little privacy but well whats done is done. But yeah, I am not telling anyone. People will eventually know when they will notice-" I stop speaking when he interrupts me by shaking his head.

"What I mean is that we pretend to be in a relationship for at least two weeks. Tell no one. Specially our friends."

"But why?" I frown not understanding the pointless demand.