Broken Glass

Sixteen part two

Sitting on the sofa, I wrapped my duvet around myself starting blankly at the tv which was playing a random kids show. Every time I tried to do something I thought of Alec. I couldn't eat or sleep yet I was hungry and exhausted.

My mom was taking it hard. Throughout the day she has tried to distract herself with house work, every now and then I'd hear her burst into to tears, which would then set off the water works for me. I had cried so much my eyes felt dry.

"Do you want anything to eat?" My mom asked shuffling into the living room. I shook my head "No." I spoke my voice dry from all the crying. She nodded silently before taking a seat on the arm chair. Both of us sat in silence dwelling in our own thoughts. The ticking of the clock seemed deafening, each second felt like an hour.

Jumping when the phone began ringing, I ran to the holder practically throwing it at my mom. She fumbled with in in shock before finally answering the call and holding it to her ear. Tapping my foot impatiently I listened to her side of the phone call, desperate to know if Alec was alright.

"Yes, this is she."

"Yes."

"What?!"

"Where?"

"Okay."

"Thank you."

Letting out a sigh of relief my mom placed the phone down, holding a palm against her chest and squeezing her eyes shut. "What did they say." I snapped impatiently pushing her arm gently to catch her attention.

"Alec's fine, he's in a hotel with his parents, " she smiled, joy bubbled inside of me as I felt my whole body begin to relax, before a frown appeared on her face "apparently he decided he wants to live with them." She explained with her brows furrowed.

My mom blinked a few times as she digested her own words, placing a hand over her chest as though someone had wounded her. I shook my head at her in disbelief "Why would he want to do that?" Alec loved his mom but when she was drinking it caused him so much pain, why would he even think about putting himself in that situation, especially with Jeremy around.

Shrugging my mom picked up her bag from the sofa, placing it on her shoulder, her eyes were emotionless and she seemed detached from her own body. I furrowed my brows at her "Where are you going?" Running her hands through her hair she shrugged again "To the station to find out more information," I smiled opening my mouth "I want you to stay her." She cut me off before I could even speak, her voice stern and commanding. Shutting my mouth I groaned slumping my shoulders.

At least Alec was okay.

For two hours I sat around the house restlessly waiting for my mom to return. I had messaged her twice but she gave me vague replies and put the phone down whoever I tried to call her.

"What happened!" I practically attacked my mom as she stepped into the house. Letting out a breath of air she flung her bag on the floor and slipped off her shoes. I followed her as she made her way into the kitchen and poured herself some coffee. I got the feeling she was avoiding telling me something.

"Mom!" I bugged her becoming irritated as she made her coffee in an agonisingly slow pace. Stirring the spoon in her coffee she sighed "He wants to stay with his parents honey, I don't know what to say." My moms eyes bounced around the room not daring to look at me. I felt a stab in my chest at her words. I watched as she took the spoon out of her coffee and placed in the sink.

Thoughts were buzzing through my mind, I shook my head to clear it "Okay, but we can go see him right?" I asked slowly. Pressing her lips into a straight line, she shook her head slightly "He doesn't want us to." Blinking my eyes, I starred at my mom in shock as I processed her words, before letting out a clipped laugh. "Yeah, but we can just go right, you're like an aunt to him, why can't we just go?" I rambled in desperateness. I watched my moms face contort into an even sadder expression at my words and I shook my head in denial.

Placing her hands on my shoulder she gave me a slight smile "I don't know where he is and I don't have custody, so I can't find out where he is." She pulled me into a hug, my body stayed limp as I starred into space not understanding her words.

Shaking my head in disbelief I took a step back "Surely, he'll answer if we call him?" My heart shattered as a sad look crossed my moms face before she shook her head gently.

Nodding, I looked down to my feet "I'm," I pointed a finger over my shoulder "I'm going to go to bed, I haven't uh, I haven't had much sleep." I told her, hearing her call my name as I rushed out of the kitchen but I ignored it.

Flinging myself onto my bed, I stuffed my face into the pillow. For a moment I just laid there feeling completely numb and void of emotion.

Then I remembered. I remembered that Alec left us for no reason at all, and for some reason he's refusing to have contact with me. My heart clenched, I suddenly realised we weren't just two people who enjoyed making out, I liked him. I liked him so much, how could he do this, did he not feel the same? Tears spilled down my cheeks and I let out a sarcastic laugh at the irony of realising how much I liked him after he had left me.

Sliding my phone out of my pocket, I decided to give it another go and call him. I felt an emptiness inside of me when the call was sent to voice mail, causing me to slam my phone against the bed in frustration.

Sitting my body down on the cold tiles of my shower, I wrapped my arms around my legs sobbing as the water fell against my back. I felt pathetic and useless. My feelings for Alec were strong and he clearly didn't feel the same way. I stayed sitting down in the shower as I rubbed soap across my body. My limbs felt weak. I starred into space feeling myself fall down a deep dark hole.

My friends had been calling me for hours, my mom had most likely told them about Alec, and they probably wanted to make sure I was okay, but I didn't want to talk to anyone. By the bulk of the messages, it was obvious that Keaton and Taylor knew about me and Alec, they knew why I was so upset he wasn't just a guy that I lived with anymore. I had feelings for Alec, strong feelings, and not having them returned was heartbreaking.