This Time

Kim

I never imagined that this day would come. That time that we will be able to talk about it. The break up, the heart break, the hurts, the past, everything. I was never a person who speaks up, but she was the one who opened it so why not let it all out.

I knew I loved Pie, I knew she was the one I wanted the very first time that I was able to be close to her. I had no idea that I will be seeing her, after so 2 years, and I was shocked to know that I was also working with her. As much as I wanted to shrug the idea that I worked with my ex. Don't get me wrong, I was never mad with Pie. I totally understand why she didn't accept my proposal but I guess I had all the right to be hurt.

When I first came to the office I really didn't knew how to approach her. I had no idea on how I will tell her that I was actually fine. I guess I was good at showing her that I was okay, but I totally wasn't. My best friend knew that. Shone was the one with me all through my heart break season.

I remember how he asked me on how I was doing after seeing Pie. His face was priceless, I just knew that I will always have him in times of need. I tried to be so casual around Pie, I even brought her coffee one time I saw her being exhausted, offered her a ride home and fixed her car for her. I loved her cared for her.

But this past talk that we had made my head and my heart really exhausted. We finally did it. We talked about everything. Our feelings and how we longed for each other. I am really happy to know that Pie still loves me and I can say that she was sincere when she told me that she love me more than that of before. But I was still hurt. I don't actually know what to do with our situation, she was just so eager to have me back, I can feel that, but things are not the same as before.

I walked back to our room as I saw Shone talking to Fern, he was madly in love with this lady. I can't blame him Fern was a catch. He approached me and he looked concerned.

"What happened to you buddy? Everything alright?" he asked me looking at my red eyes.

"Yeah, everything's fine. I just need to get some sleep. I'll see you later."

With that I walked back to our room and laid myself on the bed. I heard a knock and saw Shone come in.

"Hey, why are you here? You left Fern there?" I asked.

"Yep, she's with Pie. Seriously buddy, what happened?" he looked at me with a speak-up look.

"Nothing bud, I'm tired, go to sleep when you're ready. Turn of the lights okay?" I said and closed my eyes.

"I saw Pie come from the same place that you went, and her eyes are red too. Say it or I'll rip your head off!" hearing him almost yelling at me made me scared, WOW! He is a guy but acts like a girls sometimes, sheesh!

I looked him in the eye for a second, battling with my own thoughts if I should tell him what happened to me and Pie. But he is my best friend and he was with me through everything in my life. I took a deep breath and blurted out all the words in my mouth."

"Pieaskedmetobewithheragain!" I said not breathing.

"Speak in the human language! Come on buddy, just tell it in a more slower detail. You're speaking codes." He said irritated.

"Pie, we talked, we finally did the talk. And she asked me if I can be with her again." I said, remembering every detail as to how Pie said it.

I glanced as Shone as he seemed to be shock too. He was quiet and I bet he's thinking of the right words to say.

"What did you say to her? Did you accept it? Are you two back together?"

I told him all the details of everything that happened from the market until the talk I had with Pie. He was just listening the whole time, not interrupting me and was just eager to know the details without me hiding anything from him.

"Wow, you messed up dude." He said as he tapped my shoulders, he was somehow not sure how to feel too.

"I still love her Shone, I made it clear to her that I still love her and that I only needed time to think about us. She said that she will do everything to gain me back. And I can say that she meant it because I felt it, I felt that she really wants me back and make up all the lost time we made." I paused and looked at him, "I'm confused man." I was stopping m tears to fall but my eyes can't hold them that much.

"It's okay to cry dude, just let it all out. You'll get your answers soon enough. But just give it time." He said as he sat beside me in the bed. "It's good that you asked for time, it's hard to make fast decisions in this season. I know that you love Pie so much, but you have to think about yourself too buddy, I don't want to see you getting hurt again for the same reason and from the same girl."

I knew Shone was not mad at Pie. He was just being a good friend like what he always was. And I'm thankful that I have him around.

"What will I do Shone? I don't know that to say to Pie if ever I see her. I somehow rejected her even though it wasn't meant to be that way." I asked him, he seems to know everything. I really am having a hard time dealing with this because I never thought that this day will come, Pie chasing after me and her wanting to have me back. She loves me now more than I love her.

"Well, I think we should start on letting her do her moves in winning you back. But don't make it hard for her dude. Just let her do what she wants to do and continue being nice to her." He paused and gave me teasing smile. "Let her court you! HAHA! Yeah! Let her do that." He was laughing.

I slapped him at the back of his head. This guy is crazy.

"I was joking." He said rubbing the back of his head. "But seriously, you don't have to do anything, let Pie do what she wants to do to win you back. Just don't make it hard for her, you love her remember that and you don't want messing around with people's feelings just to get even." He warned me.

"I never had the intentions of getting revenge with Pie. Not even once, I never knew that this day will come remember. I even closed my doors to the possibility of seeing her, but then this happened, so I wil just give her that chance she was asking me and go with the flow."

"Yeah, that's better. But try not to make it obvious that you really are eager to have her back Kim, let her do efforts and take time."

"I will, I love so much buddy. I can't lose her. I just pray that when the time comes, I will be able to say that I did the right thing, whatever the outcome will be."

"I hope so too, just remember I'm here with you." With that we ended the conversation with a fist bump. And headed out of the room to get some drinks. I saw Pie talking to her friends and she looked at me, she was smiling and smiled back to her too.

I can never be so happy in my life, I just wish everything will just go well between the two of us. I loved her so much.

Oh Pie.