Keep Her (SEQUEL TO 'Love Her')

Chapter 32- I See

My throat went dry.

"What?" I slowly turned around.

"Marry me. I promise to save you from your troubles. I promise to love you until you don't know what love is because that has what you've only been feeling for a long time. And I promise to keep you and hold you tight enough to keep you safe yet loose enough to let you feel free. Please."

He grabs a ring from his pinky finger and pulls it off before he starts kneeling down. Fear and panic slaps me hard on the face. "Harry. Get the hell up. Don't. I'm not ready. You're not ready and I'd make a crappy wife. I can't even be a proper girlfriend how can I be a good wife?"

I take the small ring out of his hand and tried to slide it back onto his pinky. "Emma, don't. Please? I'll get you a proper ring later but-"

"This isn't about the ring. Harry, I don't want to get married. Like ever. It's not because of you. It's me. I don't want to get married."

It was true. I have always been an independent woman even when I wasn't a woman. I learned to live on my own and love it. Maybe in the future, I can just adopt a dog or a kid. Hey. I never said I didn't want kids. I just don't like marriage. Kids are awesome.

He suddenly grows stiff before standing up straight. "Look at me." He whispers before taking his hand to softly grab my chin and make me look up at him. "Look me in the eye and tell me that you will not marry me."

Don't do it! You love him and he loves you! Just get married and get five thousand kids.

Shut up! Think about this. Your motto was always 'Success before love'. Marrying Harry isn't going to work.

"I-"

Don't do this!!

Five more words! You can do it!

Shut up before I cut you!

You can't cut me!

Well it sounded cool when Emma use to say it.

"I don't want to-"

No!

YES!

Why you little-

"I don't want to marry you."

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Harry's p.o.v.

"I don't want to marry you." My heart suddenly drops. "I don't want to marry anyone, Harry. Some people are meant to stay alone. And I'm fine with that."

And then cue the tears. It was literally like the Tom and Jerry cartoon like tears. But these were real. "You deserve a girl who isn't screwed up. You deserve someone who is going to settle down."

"No. Emma. You are going to settle down. And that's going to be with me."

I look out the window. "I can grab the first girl I see and ask her to marry me. But here I am begging you to marry me."

"Why do you want this so much?" She whispers. "Because it has always been you for the last six years of my life. Who knows if we'll see each other after that?"

"Well you are Harry Styles and I'm probably getting that job. So I think that we'll see each other again after."

I pulled her into a hug. Why did I want her to marry me? Even I don't know, but it felt right. Everything felt right. But at the same time, everything was so wrong. She had just rejected me when I proposed to her and told me that she never planned to settle down. It broke me. Knowing that she never planned to settle down made me go weak in the legs making me feel that it was Emma trying support me this time instead of me supporting her.

"What if I went with you?" I spoke up. "What if I dropped everything and stayed with you instead?" Her eyes got wide. "So you are saying that you are willing to give up One Direction, your whole career and your fans just to be with me." Would she say yes?

A loud smack noise ran through the room as my cheek started to slightly burn. "Don't you dare ruin your life for me. I'm not worth sacrificing for." I wiped a tear that rolled off of my face. It wasn't the slap that hurt. It was knowing that the person you loved didn't want you back. They at least didn't want to try work things out.

"Oh hell, Harry. Your nose is bleeding." I quickly take out a tissue and wipe. "Its okay. It always happen when my nose goes through a lot of pressure."

She stared at me before deciding to help me treat my nose. "Its fine. I just have to hold my nose like this for a couple of minutes." I murmur. Emma takes my hand and brushed some of my curls out of my face. "I love you Harry, but honestly, I can't see myself as your wife. I can't see myself running up to you and kissing you passionately every night when you come home. I can't see myself getting into food fights with you or going on some dinner dates with you or just going on road trips."

I was silent whilst I let those thoughts roam my head. "But I can see it." I murmur. "I can see you running up to me when I get home in one of your oversided plaid shirts and ripped shorts with a messy ponytail. I can see you in a beautiful blue dress for that lovely date where you knock over some things. I can see the food fights where I attack you with flour and you crack a couple of eggs over my head and we would have to clean for hours. I can see the roadtrips where we listen to McFly with you and your Queen t-shirt and green shorts where your hair gets all frizzy."

I look at her. Emma's face was in deep thought. "I can't see it." she whispers. "Well fuck that for a second! I see it! And I know that you can see it too. You're just too scared to notice it."

I gently squeezed her hands whilst our foreheads touched. "Can't you see our future home? It's nice and old fashioned with a beautiful lawn and beautiful flowers."

I drew a flower on her palm. "And I see a room full of photos of us. It's all abstracted with some colored and some just black and white."

"Are you all okay here? I was afraid Emma ripped your throat out or something, Haz." Liam peeks inside.

"Yeah. I was just leaving." Emma spoke. "Okay. Emma do you want pizza?"

"Sure. Thanks, Li." she smiles before Liam disappeared. "Emma wait." I jog up to her and placed the silver ring back in her hand.
"Just wear it for me, please."

"Why?"

"To let everyone know that if you ever change your mind about marriage, I am first in line."

Emma's p.o.v.

I stared at him while he walked out of the room. The ring was thick and silver and the words 'My angel. My strength. my weakness.' were engraved on it.

I quickly slipped it onto my middle finger on my left hand before leaving the room.

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So I'm sorry I didn't update yesterday. But here I am today! It finally snowed a decent amount today for me (I live in New York) so I'm all piped. My family is too lazy to do anything this Christmas so I'm basically doing everything. And basically I'm getting nothing from my family this Christmas cause my parents don't want to get me 1D or 5SOS concert tickets, nor a penny board nor an electric guitar so that sucks :(

But anyways,

Much love

xoxo