Antagonist of Men

Chapter 30 *You're not sorry*

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Ford's POV

I was cursing the whole time when I saw her kissed Miko's cheek. How can she be so happy after what happened? For Pete's sakes I was having a hard time then I'll see her laughing with Miko and with Tristan?! Damn it!

I knew that she would stay here because parks are her usual spot. This is where she usually goes whenever she's upset. But I was wrong, she seems to be not affected at all and fuck it! Why is she doing this to me? Does she she have any idea how fvcking hurt I am?

Seeing her with Miko and Tristan is so damn unfair! How could she laugh infrot of them after what happened?

I noticed that she excused herself to them and that's when I took advantage. When she got nearer, I immediately pulled her with me.

She looked at me in disbelief. As if she wasn't even surprised to see me. She gave me a stern face.

"Ano ginagawa mo dito?" She said in her coldest tone.

"Tell me, are you staying with Miko? Huh?" I said meeting her cold stare.

She snorted.

"Who cares? Pinutol ko na ang ugnayan natin, Ford. Kaya lahat ng ginagawa ko, wala ng kinalaman sa'yo. Kaya please lang, back off." She hissed. She was on her way on walking out when I pulled her once again.

"You're not going anywhere, Alex!" I carried her like a sack of rice and brought her with me.

"Ano ba Ford! Ibaba mo ko! G-ago ka! Bwiset ka! Ibaba mo ko." She said unstoppably while smacking my back.

Ibinababa ko siya, but just then I received a slap. Hard slap. Painful slap.

"How dare you?! Anong karapatan mo na dalhin ako dito ah? Ano ba kita?!" She exclaimed. Good thing we're in a parking lot, no one could hear her.

But damn, that slap was really painful!

"I want us to talk, Alex. Please hear me out.." I pleaded.

Alex's POV

"Hear you out?" I said humorously. "What for? Hindi pa ba sapat na niloko mo ko? O baka naman panibagong plano na naman yan para makaganti ka sa kapatid mo na si Tristan?"

Sabi ko sa kanya ng puno ng galit. Halatang hindi niya inasahan ang sinabi ko. Tama yan, magulat ka. Ang kapal ng mukha mo magpakita sa akin.

"A-Alex.. I.." I smirked.

"O ano? Nagulat ka kung paano ko nalaman?" Bahagya siyang natigalan sa sinabi ko at napalunok.

"But don't worry, you still won though. Congratulations for breaking me.. You broke me into million pieces and it's all because of you and your f-ucking plan!" Isinigaw ko yun lahat sa mukha niya.

Gusto kong ipamukha sa kanya lahat ng k-atarantaduhan niya! S-hit lang, ang sakit sakit na naman ng dibdib ko at dahil na naman sa kanya yun!

He took a step forward to hold me but I think it's my instinct who reacted and abruptly pushed him away.

"Don't. You. Dare. Touch. Me." My body trembled when our body brushed with each other. Nagiging mahina na naman ako dahil sa kanya, ang dali ko na namang maapektuhan and I hate it!

"Alex, I'm s-sorry.."

"Sorry? You're not sorry, Ford. You never were!" Humugot ako ng isang malalim na hininga nung sabihin ko 'yon.

Itinaas niya ang tingin niya sa akin at tinignan ako. Hurt, depress at purong kalungkutan ang makikita sa mga mata niya. I wonder kung acting din 'to. Ang galing eh.

"Please come back. Come home, Alex. I miss you. Please.." Kahit gaano pa siya ka-sincere nung sabihin niya 'yon sa akin. Mas nangingibabaw pa din sa akin ang galit.

I needed time. Hindi lang ganon ganon yun na isang iglap mawawala na lahat ng sakit na ginawa niya.

"No. Hindi na ako babalik 'dun, Ford. Hindi na ako babalik sa'yo. Hinding hindi na." Kinailangan ko'ng maging matapang sa harap niya. Kahit sa loob loob ko sabog na sabog na ako.

Tinalikuran ko siya ng buong buo, pero pagtalikod ko, bigla na naman akong nabasag. Naiyak ako sa sobrang pigil ko kanina. I just can't help not to cry, tao lang din ako. Marunong din ako masaktan.

Agad akong bumalik kila Miko, pero bago 'yun, pinakalma ko muna ang sarili ko, baka kasi mahalata nila na namumugto na naman ang mga mata ko. Sinabi ko nalang, may nakita akong kakilala ko kaya ako nagtagal.

Eventually, na convince ko naman sila sa aking acting skills. We headed to my condo after that. Nagulat nga ako nung maabutan ko yung mga gamit ko dun, pinadala na pala lahat ni Tristan.

Pinakiusapan ko sila na iwan muna ako, kasi alam ko talaga sa sarili ko na maiiyak na naman ako, kaya buti nalang agad na silang umalis.

The moment they left, Hindi ko na napigilan pa ang sarili ko na maiyak pag alis nila. Grabe talaga, ito na ang pinaka malalang sinapit ko. Ang sakit eh. Sobra.

Nahiga ako sa kama ko habang hinihintay na kusang matuyo ang mga luha ko. Totoo pala na kahit gaano ka katapang, pag katapat mo na ang taong mahal mo, kusa kang napapaatras, kusa kang na duduwag.

Maybe I was really born to be hurt. When will I be happy in this world? Don't I deserve to get my happy

ending? Nakakasawa na kasi na paulit ulit ka'ng sinasaktan.

-to be continued-