My Wolf-man

Chapter 28 ~ Sun Rooms

I met with Helen as I found my way into the sun room that overlooked the mountains behind the house.

"How are you my dear?" she asked me.

"I'm doing okay I guess. Have you by chance seen Aiden?"

"He's with the Alpha."

"Oh," I replied.

She smiled softly at me. "He didn't mean to be so demanding, it's just part of his nature."

"I know, I just didn't expect him to be like that with Zander of all people. They seem so close."

"They're close because they're cousins, but as Canis Lupus, we're very protective of our mates. His first instinct is to protect you and provide for you. Without meaning to, he saw Zander as a threat because he was holding you back from him."

"I know, I just didn't expect it. I've grown used to him being protective so far, but to be like that with his own family surprised me."

"It's a wolfs natural instinct to be like that. When we grow up and are able to switch between both forms, the wolf is simply suppressed when we're in human form. The wolf will always be more dominant."

"I wonder why that's not the case for me then."

"Bloom will find out why you haven't shifted yet Sang. There's no need to worry yourself about it. You've been fine until now haven't you?" she reassured me. 

"Well, Aiden seems to think not," I chuckled. 

"What do you mean?" Her eyes lit up in curiosity. 

"Well, before I moved here I started having these moments where I'd get really hot and it felt like something was trying to break free. My chest was all scratchy and it felt like it was on fire."

"That's your wolf," she replied as her eyes glinted.

"That's what I thought but it always stops there. I never actually shift." I frowned thinking back to all the incidences. 

"It's possible the wolfsbane is preventing you from changing. Wolves die from too much wolfsbane remember."

"It's just frustrating not knowing who put it there."

"Maybe it was your parents protecting you?"

"I don't remember them, much less putting it there. The only thing Gramps told me was that they died because someone killed them. And why would protecting me resort to putting the one thing that can kill wolves into me?" 

It clawed at my heart to be talking about this, but I reassured myself that this was something they needed to know. If I ever want to be able to truely fit in with them, I have to learn to open up. Not everyone, but a few people. Starting with the people I know can help me. 

A saddened frown appeared on her face. "I'm sorry, Sang. I don't know what it's like to loose a parent, but I'm sure it must be hard."

"Thank you."

"But not remembering them might be apart of the problem. By relying on your Grandfather, he could be withholding some of the information that he deems not important but in reality might actually be. As for why they put it there... I'm afraid I have no answer to that question. Bloom will look into it, don't worry."

I let out a sigh, as I started getting a warm fuzzy sensation in my stomach. I turned around to see Aiden come around the corner.

"I'll talk to you soon Sang," his mother said as she got up from her seat.

"Thank you Ms. Cost-"

"Oh please, call me Helen," she interrupted as she smiled and walked away from us.

She'd mentioned that before, but it felt so informal to call her by her first name. I felt like I should call her Luna, seeing as though she's the Alpha's mate. I suppose if she want's me to though... I will. 

I stared at Aiden as he leant against the wall, looking away from me. I got up from the chair and walked over to him. The stubborn wolf still didn't look, even though I was standing right in front of him. I grabbed his chin, and turned his head until I could look into his eyes. I needed to make sure it was him, the loving and caring Aiden I knew. His eyes were a cloudy blue, not like his usual crystal blue ones. 

My Aiden was back. My heart swelled with joy and I gently leaned in and pressed my lips to his. He sucked in a breath, before kissing me back. His arms came and circled my back, before making his way up to cup my cheeks. My core ignited from his touch as his hand slid over the skin on my side where my jumper had risen up.

He kissing was so demanding and passionate I had to tear myself away and lean my head against his forehead to suck air into my lungs.

"I missed you," I whispered still slightly out of breath.

"You have no idea," he responded. "I'm so sorry." His eyes came up to look into mine, and I could almost see the hurt etched into them as little slithers of grey floating in the crystal ones I knew so well. "I could have hurt you. That was the last thing I wanted to do. I'm so sorry."

"Aiden, shhh," I whispered, as I kissed him again. "It's okay."

His arms came up to circle my waist, and he pulled me against him into a hug. I sighed in content, and hugged him right back.

I knew he didn't mean to, and I knew it wasn't what he intended to do. His wolf would always control him. It was a part of who he was and that would never change. He could draw on his wolf for strength when he was human, but his wolf was still always there even when he didn't want it to be - a constant reminder of who - or what - he really is. 

"Did I scare you?" he asked me through our bond.

I hesitated before I answered him. "Just a little."

"I don't want you to ever be afraid of me Sang. Seeing you grab onto Zander like you were scared of me is engrained into my mind. It killed me to know I was the one you were scared of - I was the reason you felt the need to go to someone else and choose them over me. I'm your mate and I did that to you."

"Stop beating yourself up about it. It is what it is, and I've only just been introduced to all of this. Living in a house full of wolves is a lot to deal with, and it's going to take some time to get used to. I didn't mean to latch onto Zander, he was just there in front of me when you started to get mad and frantic. If it was anyone else, I would have done the same thing."

"It brings me such joy to hear that, Luna."

"Aiden, I love you. I'll always love only you." I whispered into his mind as I looked up and captured his eyes in my gaze. The vibrant colour was slowly returning to them, like a balloon being blown up with air.

"I love you more, Luna," he responded as he captured my lips with his.