My Wolf-man

Chapter 43 ~ Blood Transfusion

The following days brought many sideways glances by other members of the pack every time I walked through the corridors of the mansion.

What happened to me made me reserve myself behind closed doors to save myself the humiliation of having to talk to someone about what happened. 

The only person whose touch I can deal with is Aidens'.

Bloom continued to conduct more research into my case and decided to start with a full blood transfusion. Later on in the day she called me into her medical room.

"Are you sure this is the only way to do this? I really hate needles" I whined to Bloom.

"You've mentioned it about a hundred times Sang," she laughed. "I know you hate them. But if you can handle never knowing what it's like to be with your wolf, I won't do it. It's completely up to you."

I contemplated what she said. Upon finding out I was a wolf, every thought I had that wasn't about Aiden was essentially about why I wasn't a normal wolf. Now that I'm presented with the opportunity to be a normal wolf I'm questioning myself. No, I'm doing this. It's what I wanted from the beginning, and I'm going to go through with it. I'd put up with more pain than a needle can cause.

She took my silence as an okay to continue, and smiled. "It'll be fine Sang."

She pulled out a needle that was quite large and I paled, but steeled my shaking spine.

She set up the equipment to conduct a blood transfusion and made me lie down on the table. Aiden eventually came in and kept me company so I didn't have to look at the bag of blood dangling down from above me. I had to force myself to not look at it to keep myself from being sick.

Hours later, Bloom removed the needles and bags and let me get up off the table. She told me to take it easy for the first few hours, but I should be up and ready in no time. She confirmed a lack of wolfsbane in my blood.

No one knew what to expect now that I didn't have any in my blood. It could be hours, days or even months before I saw any inclination of wanting to change. For now, Aiden took me to the banquet hall to find food when he heard my rumbling stomach.

I settled on some pasta, gently nibbling while listening to the soft conversations around me.

Aiden was mid conversation with Zander, apologizing for his behaviour when a sharp pain started in my stomach.

I stopped eating and pushed my pasta away from me. It was making me feel sick.

Another pain rolled like a wave from my toes all the way up to my head. I felt my wolf inside begin to stir. Something didn't feel right.

A cold sweat broke out on my skin. Aiden turned around and immediately knew something was wrong.

"What is it?"

"I- I don't know. My wolf, she- something's wrong."

It felt as if the world stopped moving, the sun stopped shining and everything on Earth stopped breathing when I felt the bones in my calf snap. A piercing scream ripped from my throat.

Aiden hauled me up as a whole lot of commotion broke through the hall. Bloom and Lucy were at my side in an instant, worry filling their eyes.

I couldn't focus on anything else aside from the pain rippling through my body. Aiden lifted me up and I saw the long brown nails protruding through my skin, drawing blood as the ripped through my human hands, and screamed again.

Aiden carried be briskly outside, and set me down on the cold snowy ground. His gentle whispers fell into my deaf ears as my accelerating heart beat began to fill my ears.

All I managed to make out were fragmented sentences.

"You  -- wolf -- it's time -- brave."

I felt my wolf fighting to break free. I pushed against her. No this is to painful. I can't do it. Aiden turned my head until I was looking into his eyes. The warmth I sought from them made my heart rate drop a fraction. Enough for me to make out what he was saying.

"Stop fighting her Sang. She is apart of you. Don't act against her. You need each other. Let her through, baby. Let her out."

I cried as the searing pain of breaking bones, snapping and twisting as my body morphed into one of fur and teeth and paws. When the pain became numb, I opened my eyes to see Aiden leaning over me with pride, and ... tears?

I looked down at myself, and noticed a thick white coat of fur coating my entire body. Except my paws and the end of my nose appeared to be grey, visibly noticeable against the pristine white of my coat.

I stood up and heard her in my mind.

"Finally."

Glee filled me. Happiness filled me. I laughed, and only heard snorting sounds. I took a look around and noticed my vision was almost one thousand times clearer than my human vision. I could stop and see the individual snowflakes falling down from the sky in almost slow motion, and I could zoom in to see the squirrel in the tree cracking away on the nuts it had stored for Winter.

I turned around and saw Aiden's wolf staring back at me. He walked up to me and nuzzled my neck.

"I love you Sang. I always will. I'm so proud of you."

He nuzzled me more when I felt the cold turning my tears to ice on my fur.

"I love you more".

I stepped back from him, my grey tail swishing around hitting the snow on the ground, and smirked. Although it came out as more of a snort. It was something I was going to have to get used to.

I took another step back, and then another, slowly inching myself into a sprint through the forest. I heard Aiden howl. Possessive, demanding. Mine.

I felt his presence hot on my tail as I ran through the forest, twigs and leaves hitting me as I sprinted away from the pack mansion.

It dawned on my that I'd experienced this before. In my dream. It was always meant to happen. This was always supposed to be me. From the beginning.

The thought spurred more energy from me as a ran into the night, my mate nipping playfully at my tail.

This is my dream. This is my life now. And it always will be.