I'll Show You

Chapter forty-one

Christina|

I am so excited to be going to Canada. I've always dreamed of going. I also chose this place because I knew Justin needed to be back home. He misses his family and he has been around mine a lot lately, so I think it's time for me to meet them. I'm kinda nervous, but it shouldn't be too bad.

After everything that happened, I just need to get away. New York is something I left behind a while ago, and I went back because at the time I needed to. Once I stay there, it feels like a black hole that I can never escape. That sounded depressing, but it's true.

It's only October, I forgot that Justin's thanksgiving is coming up. Oh my god, that means food. Turkey and dressing with Macaroni and cheese and pumpkin pie holy shit. I sound like a fat ass, but food right now is my best friend.

At the moment, we are sitting on his jet looking out of the window as we fly through the clouds. I don't understand why we never thought of this before, but I'm kinda glad that I brought it up. I couldn't stay in New York for another day. My mom wasn't too happy about us leaving, but she didn't like the idea of me being in danger either. She was understanding. I keep forgetting that she is pregnant. I still haven't broke the news to her just yet, but I cannot hide it forever. I don't know how she is going to react, because the last time I actually had a conversation with her, she told me to not get pregnant so soon and... I did the opposite.

I don't need to dwell on that though, I just need to think about the positives and enjoy this tiny vacation with Justin and his family. I hope they like me.

"What are you thinking about?" Justin asked snapping me out of my daze.

"Just thinking about how this trip is going to go and meeting your family." I replied.

"Don't worry, they are going to love you and you're not showing, so we don't have to break the news right now if you don't want to." He said wetting his lips.

"Well this is my first time meeting them, maybe when I start showing then we can tell them." I suggested.

"That's fine, whatever makes you feel better." He said slightly smiling.

"I'm ready to meet your little sister and brother. They are so cute." I replied.

"I have missed them so much. They make me a better person and I don't know what my life would be like without them." He said smiling over the thought of his siblings.

The way Justin shows love for his brother and sister is so sweet and I am actually glad that he is close with them. He does his best to be there for them and it shows that he is going to be a great dad.

"Jaxon looks like you so much." I said carrying on the conversation.

"That he does. He always wants to be like me. I do my best to be the best influence on him. I can tell whenever he grows up he is going to be amazing. Jazzy too." He said smiling still.

"That makes me even more excited to meet them now." I laughed.

"Just so you know, Jaxon is kinda shy, but once he gets comfortable he will open up to you and probably compliment you  a lot."

"What about Jazzy? Is she shy too or no?" I asked curiously.

"Kinda sorta. She's really never home because of her dance recitals, but pretty sure she will be home for thanksgiving." Justin responded.

I nodded and continued looking out of the window. It's going to be a while before we get to Canada. Most likely up to nine hours or less. I'm going to be so jet lagged.

"I know I keep asking questions, but is your mom going to be there?" I asked just to see what he would say. He never really talks about his mom a lot.

"I don't know. Probably not... Why you ask?" He said looking over at me.

"Just wondering, I never hear you talk about her." I replied chewing on my lip.

He shrugged his shoulders and let them fall. "I'm a lot closer to my dad than I am to my mom."

"Weren't you really close at one point though?" I asked confused.

"Yeah, we were, but over time we drifted apart. I don't see her as much as I'd like to, but... I mean it is what it is. I'm doing my own thing and she is doing her own thing. Once I grew up, I was just always gone and it's like whenever that happens, you don't really need them, and you don't value their opinion the same like you use to... and things change. I will always love my mom, but I'm just not that close to her anymore. Our conversations are really non-existent." He explained in depth.

Damn...

"I hate that your bond with her faded, but do you know why?"

"Well, whenever I was going through a lot a few years ago our relationship just kinda weakened and I guess it was because I was pushing her away, but I'm not really sure. It sucks, but I'm okay. It's a shitty thing to say, but I don't really need her anymore as much as I use to." He replied.

"What about your grandma and grandpa? You were extremely close to them, I know that."

"Yeah, I see them every now and then. Not much as I want to, but I do miss them both." He said looking down at his feet.

"How about one day when we are free, we take a trip to see them and your mom maybe?" I suggested just to see what he would say.

"I don't know, I'll think about it." He said trying to skip onto the next topic.

I noticed he didn't really like that idea, but it's just crazy that he was once so close to his mom and then it's like he doesn't even know her at all. It kinda breaks my heart, because they use to have the most cutest relationship ever. I don't know exactly why he is cutting her out of his life, but I guess it's really not any of my business.

After I was done badgering him with questions, I looked down at my hand, noticing the empty spot where my ring would usually be. I felt naked and just weird without it being on my finger.

I asked so many questions to keep my mind off of the horrible thoughts in my mind. I can't sleep because I just know I'll have a horrible dream about it. I'm really tired too.

It keeps playing in my mind. Three guys with faces I couldn't see behind the black masks. They demanded me to give them my ring. I didn't tell them so they tied my hands to where I couldn't move and shoved a sock in my mouth so I couldn't scream.

That was the most horrifying thing that has ever happened to me in my life. I thought something was going to happen to Justin, but I'm so glad that they didn't hurt him. I was afraid no one was going to find me and I was going to be stuck in there.

I wanted to call the police so badly, but I knew if I did, it would just be another case and that wouldn't look good on Justin's rep nor mine. I can't sit in another court room and fight for justice. It sounds stupid, but I'm so tired and drained from all of it. Don't you think I deserve a break? I mean, I got shot by my ex boyfriend, I'm pregnant and now I got robbed in my own hotel room.

Jesus.

Everyone says they wish they were me because I'm dating Justin. Trust me, dating Justin is amazing, but the life we live is definitely not like anyone else's.

Justin really deserves a break. I know he already had one, but ever since we started dating, it has been nonstop drama. What is this? Keeping up with the Kardashians?