Flashes and Music (HIATUS)

New phases [20]

for her. :'>

Alesana_Marie first caught my attention not because of her works (wait may karugtong pa), i noticed her because of her Username Alesana which is my favorite band. I read most of her stories and she's terribly awesome. No wonder, she deserves to use that name (why? Alesana might be a Screamo type of band but if you seek through their words, you'll see how deep they are). Now I had my favorite band and an Author named Alesana. :)

YUN LENGS >__<

New phases [20]

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Waving goodbye

People come, people go. All you can do is to watch them walking away. Who am I to stop them? Who am I to be selfish? They say if you love someone you should learn how to let them go, then here I am applying this thing to myself. 

Yea, there’s someone who just left me. It hurts to be left with no other choice but to watch them go. Am I a bad person to be left behind? Didn’t I deserve to be loved? Am I a burden to them now? *sigh* 

All those questions hunts me. My heart is falling into pieces whenever I remember that voice. That  voice that I used to hear first thing in the morning, that voice that put me into sleep every night. And now that was the voice that made my heart broken into pieces.

My heart now screams because AJ is hurting. AJ is now vulnerable. AJ is now trying to stand from a big fall. AJ is now starting to learn how to love herself even more.

 Now I should learn to stand on my own. I’m no longer his princess; no one will keep me away from stupid monsters.

The hell am I doing? HAHA. This blog was so invalid. I should’ve shared this to anyone except to my bestfriend. But what can I do? I treat everyone of you as my bestfriend.

♫♪Dearest love I hope this message finds you well, as these endless thoughts drip from my soul. As these endless words secretly paints our fairytale of when we will melt into one. ♫♪

Love and Kisses.

AJ. </3

Ps.

This post would last for just a day.

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Haha. Napaka-talksh*t ko talaga minsan.

Sabe ko nga di ako malulungkot diba? HAHA. Mamayang gabi or bukas ng umaga buburahin ko na lang yun sa blog site ko. Sa ngayon gusto ko lang talagang maglabas ng nararamdaman ko. Kawawa naman kasi tong si babe, palagi na lang syang basa. Hahaha.

First day of second sem nga pala ngayon at tinatamad pa akong bumangon.  -__- Pagkauwi namin from Baguio dumerecho kami nina Daddy sa Hongkong para daw magunwind. It helped me a lot, di lang sa shopping spree kundi dahil nagging busy ang utak ko and somehow nakalimutan ko tong sakit na nararamdaman ko.

Oo nakakangiti ako. Expert ata ako sa bagay na yan noh. Pero syempre di ko parin kayang lokohin ang sarili ko kung nasasaktan parin ako. Madaming tanong. Actually isa lang pala. Puro lang BAKIT. Bakit iniwan nya ako. Bakit bumitaw sya. Bakit nya yun ginawa? Di ko alam kung magkakaroon pa ba ng mga kasagutan ang mga tanong na yan. Di ko alam kung paano mangyayari yun.

“Beh?” Oops I guess pinapatawag na ako ni Mommy for breakfast.

“Sunod  na po ako ate chin!”