Stonehearts 3: Aquamarine

Thirty One

"Princess, are you okay?" I heard Daddy's voice from the other side of my bedroom door. Naririnig ko rin silang nagbubulungan ni Papa kung bubuksan ba nila ang pinto o hindi.

When I didn't answer, I heard them opening it. Nakadapa ako sa kama habang umiiyak, umupo sila sa magkabilang gilid ng kama ko. "Figlia, you did move on from him last time. Kaya mo ulit gawin 'yun." Papa said, stroking my hair.

I sniffed, "He's getting married Papa. He's marrying Tasha." Sumbong ko bago ako naiyak ulit. Hindi ko alam na may naimbak pala akong ganitong karaming tubig sa katawan ko, I've been crying non-stop for two hours. Sobrang sakit na sa mata at sa ulo.

Binaon ko ulit ang mukha ko sa mattress ng kama ko. They didn't say a word, they just consoled me with things I wasn't able to take in fully. Hindi ko alam kung gaano ako katagal umiyak, pero hindi naman nilisan nila Daddy ang tabi ko.

I wasn't fit for work the next day so Papa and Daddy said that I should take the day off. They served me breakfast in bed too, but I'm not really up for eating.

I just sat in silence, thinking if all my decisions were right. Magiging masaya ba ako kung inuna ko ang kapakanan ko kesa kay Natasha. Will I burn in hell if I chose to be happy instead of being miserable like this?

I took my phone out and streamed through the pictures we took when I was still in the Philippines. How we relieved all the good parts of our relationship, how we ended up being the old Brinx and the old Rina, how we made sure that nothing can break us ever again.

But happily ever afters only happen in children books and not in real life. Kahit anong pilit mo sa isang tao kung hindi ka para sa kanya, hinding-hindi kayo magiging masaya.

I did experience my share of happily ever after with him in the span of two months, but who needs that happily ever after if isn't forever?

"Aqui baby, your Papa and I are going to the supermarket. Gusto mo bang sumama? Para makapili ka rin ng gusto mong kainin mamayang dinner." Daddy said, peaking through the small space he made with the door.

I nodded my head, I can't keep on pushing them away. "Yes daddy, magbibihis lang ako." He smiled in relief.

Hawak lang ni Papa ang kamay ko habang masaya na nagtuturo ng kung ano-ano. "Would like an old school pasta night principessa?" Papa Luigi asked while holding a pack of zucchini.

I tried smiling at him, "Anything is fine for me Papa."

Sinubukan namang akong ngitian ni Papa pabalik pero parang mas lalo lang sumama ang itsura niya. Nagsimula na lang siya ulit maglakad at magtingin ng iba pang mabibili, hawak niya pa rin naman ang kamay ko.

I was feeling a little dizzy while we continued walking on the store's hallway. The ground I'm walking on is skewing around in different directions. Pakiramdam ko paikot ng paikot ang paligid ko.

"P-papa.." I called out, stopping my tracks and leaning on our cart. Napalingon sa akin si Papa, pero bago pa ako nakapagsalita nagdilim na ang paningin ko at tuluyan ko ng naramdaman ang lamig ng semento.

I woke up and I was lying on a white bed, surrounded by a white wall. I saw Papa and Daddy talking in Italian to a doctor outside my room. I held my head before I sat up, dang that's one headache. Ito na ata ang resulta ng hindi ko pagtulog at pagkain ng maayos.

Napalingon sila sa akin bago sila nagpaalam sa kausap nila. Papa immediately sat beside me, running his hands on my medium length baby blue hair.

"How are you feeling figlia?" He asked, his eyes darting to daddy once in a while.

But I tried ignoring it, "Ayos lang po ako Papa. A little dizzy but I'm okay." I heard daddy sigh before resting his arms on Papa's shoulder. Napalingon sa kanya si Papa, nangungusap pa nga ang mga mata nila.

They knew something and they are looking for a way to say it to me.

"Is there something you would like to tell me Papa, Daddy?" I asked in all confidence, but not ready to hear it at all.

Daddy drew in another deep breath. "Principessa, did something happen between you and that Bardoquillo boy?" He inquired in a straight manner.

Papa gripped his hand tight, closing his eyes for a brief moment. "The truth anak ko, we just want to hear the truth." Papa coaxed.

My eyes started welling up again, I don't want to disappoint them. But the look on their eyes gave everything away. Pakiramdam ko wala akong kwentang anak, they took me in and this is what I pay them.

Napatango ako, "Meron po....pero minsan lang po..." My voice getting softer and softer. "I'm sorry Papa, Daddy. I'm sorry." I sobbed, hiding my face.

I felt them hugging me tight, "You don't have anything to be sorry about bella Aqui. Tao ka lang, you aren't immune to mistakes. But what's present now isn't a mistake." Papa said soothingly.

I jerked my head up, not following what they said. "W-what do you mean Papa?"

Nagkatinginan nanaman sila ni Daddy, but this time dread was absent in their eyes. It flickered with hope and delight. "You're pregnant figlia, 6 weeks."

My hands automatically snaked around my belly. I'm carrying Brinx's child? After an eternity, I felt a smile creeping on my face.

"Am I really?" Hindi makapaniwalang tanong ko. Papa ran his fingers on my hair again before nodding. "Yes, the doctor confirmed it a while back."

"B-but..." Gusto ko sanang tanungin kung hindi ba sila galit. Hindi ba sila disappointed na yung kaisa-isa nilang anak disgrasyada pa. But Daddy was quick to prevent me from asking any further.

"It's okay principessa. A baby is a blessing, just like what you are to us. It doesn't matter if he/she grows with or without a father. The important thing is he/she will live with overflowing love from us."

I cried after hearing what they have to say. I cried too knowing that I have taken a piece of Brinx with me. I'm happy that I wasn't going to live a life without him after all.