Finally Home (Omeeka Adoption Story)

Chapter 10

Nicki
"Mom. Do you ever think about having any other babies?" Cameron asked as we sat at the table having dinner together, since Kellise ate in her room and Kaylin went to bed at 7:30.
"Well, yeah. I know I already have two daughters but I would like to experience another pregnancy before I get too old. Why'd that cross your mind?" I asked and she shrugged.
"Because I hear your phone conversations with Meek a lot." She answered.
"We talked about a baby once. That doesn't necessarily mean we're going to have one. We're not even together. And stop being nosey." I said and she sighed.
"I need a dad, mom." She said and I looked down not wanting to have that conversation again.
"Cameron, please. Not this again." I said firmly, trying to finish the rest of my dinner.
"Sorry. It's just that I want-"
"How many things do you want?! How much do you need?! I try my hardest for you girls and you want more from me. I'm new to this whole parenting thing. Please tell me what I'm doing wrong." I said cutting her off.
"Nothing! You're doing nothing wrong! You're a good mom! You just never listen to me... it feels like everything I say to you goes in one ear and out the other!" She yelled at me.
"Don't you raise your voice at me Cameron Latrice! I'm the parent, you're the child!" I said and she looked down.
"I...I'm so-sorry." She whispered with tears rolling down her cheeks.
"Don't start that. Please don't cry." I said feeling bad. She was getting ready to go upstairs until I stopped her.
"Please don't go. Let's talk okay. I ju-" She shook her head and went upstairs.
Cameron
Once I was upstairs, I ran to my room and cried. I was so upset with myself, I'm turning into such a brat. I looked through my drawers and found a unused pencil sharpener. I took the blade out and ran to my bathroom, locking the door. I slid down the door and cried and I cut my wrist. I felt like I couldn't stop...so I didn't. I just kept on cutting and cutting, not even knowing why, I just needed to be relaxed. I finally stopped and just cried as I let the blood trickle down my arm. My eyes slowly closed as I thought about the pain from my wrist. It felt so amazing, the pain I well deserved was overwhelming my whole body... and I loved it. I sat for a few minutes and calmed down.
"Cameron, honey are you okay?" I heard my mother's gentle voice say from the other side of the door.
"Y-yeah. I'm fine. I'll be out in a sec." I said as I winced while I ran water over my arm and cleaned myself up. I put on my robe from the back of the door so my arm would be covered. I opened the door and my mom stood with a worried look on her face.
"Cameron, I'm sorry I'm just-"
"It's okay. I don't care anymore. What does it matter anyways?" I asked sitting down on my bed and she sat next to me. She tried to hug me but I moved away and held my hands up.
"Can you not? I don't want that right now. I want to be alone. So can you please leave?" She looked at me with sad eyes, but right now I felt too numb to feel bad for her. She nodded leaving, closing the door behind her. I cried into my pillow, and after a couple minutes I fell asleep.
•••Next Day•••
Nicki
"What you want for breakfast?" I asked Kellise as she sat with a sleepy Kaylin in her lap.
"I don't know. You choose. I'll have whatever you cook." She said.
"Pancakes, bacon and eggs? How about that?" I asked and she nodded bouncing her leg because Kaylin was falling asleep again.
"Wake up boo. You want some wa wa?" I asked Kaylin and she nodded. I fixed her sippy cup with water. Kaylin drunk some of the cool water and started to wake up.
"Good morning daughter." I sung as Cameron walked into the kitchen. She said nothing back, just going to the fridge to get a bottle of water.
"You don't want to eat breakfast with us?" I asked and she still ignored me.
"Someone's in a bad mood." Kellise said and Cameron turned around.
"Just shut up Kellise. Ok?!" She said before walking back upstairs.
"Cameron come back here now!" She huffed and walked to me.
"What?" She said with an attitude.
"Stop acting like a brat and being disrespectful. And stop with the attitude." I said and she rolled her eyes.
"I don't have one." She said and I gave up. I went back to making breakfast.
"You know what? I don't feel like dealing with you and this attitude you got this morning. So you can make your way back upstairs." I said and she looked at me in the eyes, all I saw was hurt and anger. I've never seen her like this, I thought as she turned and walked back upstairs.
"What's gotten into her?" Kellise asked as she sat Kaylin in her highchair an put her bib on.
"I'm not sure. I think she's gonna get her period. She's getting to that age." I said as I gave the girls their food. I sat down at the table and started eating.
"Mama." Kaylin said and I smiled at her.
"Yes baby?" I asked giving her my full attention.
"Yummy." She said and I smiled, then going back to eating her food.
"You should go talk to her auntie." Kellise said and I shook my head.
"I don't even wanna deal with all that this morning." I said and Kellise sighed.
"Alright fine." She said as she took her plate in the kitchen.
Kellise
I finished my food before going upstairs to talk to Cameron.
"Hey." I said walking in to her room, and she ignored me as she watched something on her phone. I sat down on her bed.
"Your mom is worried about you. What's going on?" I asked and she didn't say anything just looked at me as if she wanted to tell me something but couldn't.
"You can talk to me about anything. But if now isn't the time I understand, you can tell me whenever you're ready." I said and she turned her phone off.
"I did something I thought I wouldn't do ever again. I don't want my mom to find out because she might get mad at me and take me away or something." She said and I nodded.
"What did you do?" She sighed and looked out the door.
"She not up here, she's downstairs with your sister. They're still eating." I assured her and she pulled up her sleeve. I saw a bunch of fresh cuts on her wrist. I put my hand over my mouth.
"Cameron," she pulled her sleeve down.
"I lost control and I didn't mean to. It was an accident." She said and I sighed.
"Well you have to tell her. Because right now, she thinks that you're just acting out for attention and if that's not the case then tell her." I said and she nodded.
"Okay I'll tell her. But what if she gets mad and thinks of me differently?" She asked and I hugged her.
"She'll still look at you as her daughter. She will be upset, but not mad. She's probably gonna ask you if you want help. Do you?" I asked and she nodded.
"I need it. This hurts more than any physical pain I've ever gotten. I'm going through a lot and I want it all to end." She told me and I nodded. Nicki needed to know.
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