Finally Home (Omeeka Adoption Story)

Chapter 18

Aaron
This was the second night I was at Nicki's house and Kellise woke up screaming and crying. Nicki told me how to calm her when it happens but nothing was working.
"Come on baby. I'm right here. It's gonna be okay. No ones gonna hurt you." I said and she began to shake. I held her tight and after a while she stopped shaking.
"I love you so much." I repeated as I rocked her and kissed her forehead. She calmed down fully as she allowed me to rock her back and forth. And these are the times I feel like I fail her. Seeing her in this much pain kills me. And knowing I can't save her from her own mind makes me go crazy. This girl is the love of my life and I'm willing to do everything in my power to make her happy.
"I-I'm sorry." She whispered looking down.
"No it's okay baby. Go to sleep." I said as I laid back with her on my chest. I rubbed her back soothingly as we both went to sleep.
•••Morning•••
"Ms. Nicki. How can I stop Kel from waking up in the night? Did the therapist say anything about that?" I asked talking on the phone with Nicki while I made breakfast.
"No she didn't, but you can ask more about it today at the session. I think it's Kellise's anxiety. They recommended medication. But I don't want to drug my niece." Nicki said sadly through the phone.
"I know how you feel. But let's leave it to her. If she chooses she needs the drugs, then you'll have to agree to let her take them. I hate the idea of her being drugged to be happy just as much as you do... but I also love her just like you. So we have to do what's best for her and I think what's best for her is letting her choose." I said and I heard Nicki sigh through the phone.
"You're right. Well the therapy session for her is in an hour and a half. Don't be late. Also, I'm sure the therapist can answer any questions you have so don't be afraid to ask her any questions." Nicki said.
"Okay. Thank you so much Ms.Nicki. I'm about to wake her up for breakfast. I'll call you if I need anything." I said fixing the plate.
"Okay Aaron. Bye." She said.
"Bye." I said then hung up. I went to the bedroom and saw Kellise sitting on the bed on her phone.
"Good morning baby. I made you breakfast." I said as I sat on the bed before giving her a kiss. She didn't kiss back or answer me.
"Babe. You okay?" I asked and she shook her head no.
"Well, you have an appointment with your therapist in a little over an hour so let's go downstairs and eat breakfast then get dressed. Okay?" I asked and she nodded her head. We went downstairs and Kellise and I ate breakfast. I noticed she wasn't eating much, and I get that. She's hurting and it's hard for her to do everyday things. So I let that slide this one time because Nicki did tell me to monitor her eating. Once we were done eating breakfast we got dressed.
"Baby... I don't want to go." She whispered and I sighed.
"How come? Tell me what's wrong." I asked looking at her.
"I'm scared and I don't like talking to her." She said wrapping her arms around me, hugging me tight.
"Well you have to talk to her because she's gonna help you get better and find yourself. But why are you scared?" I asked grabbing her socks out of the drawer and began putting them on her feet.
"I'm scared you're gonna look at me differently. You don't want to believe that you will, but you will. There's always gonna be one certain part of me you might not fully accept." She said looking down. I put her shoes down on the floor and lifted her chin.
"Baby. I love you. When I say that, I mean that I love each and every single part of you. Okay? I love you, so much." I said to her and kissed her.
"I love you too baby. Thank you." She said back to me. I put her shoes on for her before grabbing my keys, leaving the house.
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Kellise POV
"Baby, the session wasn't that bad. I told you that you were strong. I'm so proud of you for opening up to her." Aaron said, setting dinner on the table.
"Thanks baby." I said and prayed before eating.
"Your aunt wanted me to talk to you about medication. For your anxiety. We think it might help you not wake up scared in the middle of the night. But the decision is all yours. It's all up to you if you want to take it or not." He said taking a bite of his food as I picked at mine, listening to his every word.
"So you want to drug me?" I said. I felt like nothing almost, I know they think it's for my own good but this medication stuff is making me feel like a lost case that no one wants to be bothered with.
"Baby, no. That's exactly what we didn't want you to think. That's why we've given you the choice." He said grabbing my hand looking at me.
"So... I'm that hard to handle. That she sent me off to a therapist to help me get better and then she comes up with the idea to put me on medication." I say as my breathing picked up from the anger that was slowly churning inside of me.
"So you think drugging me is okay?" I said, then paused. "Fucking medication..." I laugh, out of anger. He began to rub my arm gently as he noticed my frustration.
"Kellise.... calm down for me okay? Everything's gonna be alright, but right now I need you to take deep breaths for me." He said softly, getting up out of his seat. He walked around the table to where I was sitting and sat in the chair next to me.
"We just thought we should give you the choice because we both hate seeing you like this. Seeing you have night terrors hurts us so much. We both just came up with the idea that the medication might work." He rubbed my thigh as he tried to reason with me. But something in me didn't want to listen to him. I snatched away from him and began to walk upstairs.
"Baby Wait!" He said, running after me.
"No! And to think you were on my side!" I said before he cut me off.
"We're all on your side! We all want to help you. Baby, look we just..." He yelled, before lowering his voice, not wanting to argue with me.
"We just what huh?! You went behind my back and talked to my aunt about giving me drugs! Fucking drugs Aaron! You don't understand how that makes me feel. And you say you're on my side..." I said breaking down. He grabbed my arm trying to pull me into a hug, but I snatched away.
"No! J-just leave me alone right now. I need space." I said and ran to my room, locking the door. I found a blade in my bathroom and began to cut. I don't know what it was, but something in me wanted to feel physical pain so bad. The burning wounds suppressed my emotional pain of feeling defeated. It made me forget everything that was going on in my life in this moment. Soon, all of my temporary numbness went away and I got scared. I was bleeding a lot so I dropped the blade.
"Baby!" I screamed as my hands shook. I heard his quick footsteps.
"Kellise. Unlock the door." He said frantically and I unlocked it. He saw my wrist and immediately panicked. I was bleeding a lot.
"Kel?! What the hell did you do? You're bleeding so much!" He said as he took me to the sink and started gently washing my wrist with a clean wash cloth.
"On my God, baby you're bleeding a lot. Damn it. What did you do?" He asked as I couldn't do anything but cry. Once he got me cleaned up he walked me to the bed.
"I'm gonna go downstairs and get the first aid kit. Don't move baby I'll be right back." He said and once he left I looked at my arm.
"Why are you so stupid?" "You know he's gonna break up with you right?" "He doesn't want to be with a girl like you." "You screwed up big time."  All my thoughts scared me as I put my hands over my ears and rocked back and forth gently.
"Please, please stop." I whispered. My thoughts were scaring me and I couldn't escape it.
"Baby you okay? What's wrong?" Aaron asked coming into the room with gauze and a bandage.
"Huh? What's the matter baby?  I need you to talk to me." He said wrapping my wounds before sitting on the bed against the head board.
"Is something scaring you?" He asked as he pulled me on his chest and rocked me.
"Baby, if you don't wanna talk that's okay. We can talk later. Right now you just need to rest okay." He said and I nodded. I let him rock me back and forth until sleep took over me.
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-Tamerax1x💕