The next day I woke up to my phone going off. Ughh. I reached over and grabbed my phone off the night stand. I squinted at the bright screen to see who was calling.
Incoming call from: Cal Cal <3
"Hello?" i asked groggily.
"Hi."
"Uhm, can I help you?"
"Hm... no. I just wanted to say hi. How are you feeling?" he asked.
"I'm fine, thanks for waking me up."
"Aw you're welcome babe."
"I was kidding, dork."
"As was I." Ugh. He was too cute to be real.
"Okay, well, you've said hi, so bye." and I hung up and tried to go back to sleep. Thankfully, he didn't call back. He just texted. And then, I feel into a deep sleep.
"Hi babe, what's your name?"
"Melody."
"A beautiful name for a beautiful girl."
"T-Thanks.." That was the cheesiest thing he could ever say. Then I remembered the note I wrote for him.
"I have something for you..." I reached into my pocket and pulled out the note. I handed it to him, but he stared at it for a second beofre grabbing my wrist and staring at it. Shit, I thought, I forgot to cover them up, damit.
"W-What is wrong with you? You're a freak, why would you even think of doing this to yourself? You're messed up." He dropped my arm and walked off, and I burst out crying.
And then I woke up screaming, tears running down my face. It was just a dream, it was just a dream. I then remembered the text he sent me before I woke up, and I grabbed my phone to see what he said.
Okay, go back to bed babe. Text me when you wake up though. xx
I replied
I'm awake now xx
Then I sat my phone down and went to the bathroom to wash my face and wake myself up. That dream seemed so real.. I bet he really did think that, he just couldn't say it because it would ruin his reputation...whatever... I splashed the water on my face and looked up, my hands on the sink.
Disgusting.
Ugly.
Trash.
Hideous.
Those words described me perfectly. Everytime I heard the voices, I just wanted to make them go away. The only way was with a blade. I couldn't do it again, it's getting pathetic... but I feel the need to... and I'm not strong enough to resist it. What has my life come to? I fucked up by making the first cut.
Fat.
Whore.
Worthless.
Kill yourself.
I just need to get rid of the voices....I went to my room and got my blade. I'm so stupid. I cut once, but it was a deep one. Then, I got a call. Perfect timing. I shakily grabbed the phone
"H-Hello?"
"Hey, is everything alright? You haven't been answering my texts." It was Calum. Then I checked and sure enough he texted about 20 times.
"Yea, I'm f-fin- actually, no.... Cal I really need you right now...I need you to c-come over... p-please hurry.."
"I'm on my way babe what happened? Is everything alright? What's your address?"
I gave him my address, he wasn't that far since he is staying in a hotel about a mile or 2 away. About 5 minutes I was feeling light headed, and he barged into my room. He saw my wrist and at the same time he looked sad and angry. He didn't even say anything, he picked me up and carried me to the car.
"Where are you taking me?" I asked
"The hospital." he said starting the car.
I didn't reply, I felt way too tired to. We made it to the hospital, luckily I didn't pass out before then. Right when the doctors carried me in on the stretcher, I passed out. Atleast I'm safe here. Without him I would be at home dying, Calum is my life saver.
-okay so there might be errors idk it's 5:02 am so yea lol oh and the one part where Calum was saying that stuff I know he would never say that it was just her dream xx
