It’s amazing how much you tend to find out a person by spending so little time with them. Hate is a strong word, towards me especially. I feel like when you use the word “hate”, you must really dislike whatever you’re talking about. Hate is when you feel an intense or passionate dislike for someone or something. Hate in you will only damage your as a person. Don’t let your past define who you are, but define why your whole. I wished I had loved them in the way you're meant to love another person. Not in the way that I define devotion but in the way they did. Sometimes I feel like I’m waiting on something that isn’t going to happen. I don’t hate you, I just don’t want to give you the opportunity to hurt me again. I hate that I miss you. I hate that you forgot about me. I hate that I still care about you. I hate that you’ll never know it. Yes, I’m smiling but it’s not because of you anymore. I have learned to let myself leave you instead of hanging on for you to pull me back up and claim me as yours again. I hate it when you think I’m not interested. I hate it when you think I don’t care. I hate it when you think I don’t love you. I hate how I push you away and you think it’s someone else. I hate that I can’t spend all my time with you like before. I hate that I let myself draw away from you. I hate that we can never be together again because of these stupid mistakes I have made to you. And I am sorry for not being there in your time of need and not helping you up when you were being brought down. For not being there when you fell to your lowest. You can never understand someone until you are able to spend your time with them. Because in the end they are going to leave you because you didn’t show that you were interested in them from the start. We must develop and maintain the capacity to forgive. He who is devoid of the power to forgive is devoid of the power to love. There is some good in the worst of us and some evil in the best of us. When we discover this, we are less prone to hate our enemies. Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that. Life is one big road with lots of signs. So when you riding through the ruts, don't complicate your mind. Flee from hate, mischief and jealousy. Don't bury your thoughts, put your vision to reality. It is easy to hate and it is difficult to love. This is how the whole scheme of things works. All good things are difficult to achieve; and bad things are very easy to get. I say what I want to say and do what I want to do. There's no in between. People will either love you for it or hate you for it. It is my goal to love everyone. I hate no one. Regardless of their race, religion, their proclivities, the desire of their heart and how they want to live their life and the decisions that they make. I can even respect people's decisions and lifestyle choices just as I hope they have the courtesy to respect my decisions and my choices. But when they do something to me like you did then that’s when all my care to you is no longer there. I imagine one of the reasons people cling to their hates so stubbornly is because they sense, once hate is gone, they will be forced to deal with pain. So many people take for granted the love they receive but are too selfish to return the favor. All they really do is ignore people and think that it‘s all about them. I know I made you feel like you don’t mean nothing but what I want you to remember is that it was your fault that this relationship if I made you feel that way then we could’ve worked it out and we would still be together but you’re too stubborn to do so. I tried, I tried so hard for you but all you did was push me away and now when you try I push you away. We can’t keep having a relationship that is so toxic that we can’t see but the people we love and care about see it. They think it’s hate but you and I both knew it was pure love. Yeah, we had our fights but we always worked it out but I guess this time it went too far so I decided that we had to leave, because I knew our love would soon come to an end. I know this is probably hard for you and it is for me too but we have remember the good times we had before everything went downhill. But it’s just I can’t stand the thought of being with you anymore. You had your chance and all you did was blow it. The heart is a stupid thing. Love is just a foolish word. May I never feel my heart break again. May it remain numb and forgotten because I don’t want to hurt anymore.
