Every time I see you my heart skips a beat. My stomach does flips. My knees feel weak. Any cliche feeling a person may feel in the movies, that's what I feel every time I see you. I just get so excited to see you because you make my days so much better than anybody could have ever done. The things that you make me feel is so weird and I just would like to say that damn, you got some skills going on with you. Now to move on before I get too ahead of myself. Usually when I get excited, I tend to get really hyper like a kid who's had too much candy. Or I would start to talk really fast, that also happens when I get nervous but the clear difference you need to look for is if I am constantly fidgeting. If I'm fidgeting then i'm nervous, if I'm not then I'm excited. Usually it takes a lot for me to get excited. So I don't think I can truly remember a time that I got excited. When I found out I was having my sister's, I'm going to be honest, I was devastated. Twelve years of being an only child down the drain. No more being spoiled, no more money up front, no more freedom. It was nothing but whiny, bratty, stinky, rude, bad ass kids I had to deal with. One of them I don't get to see as much as the other and although I really do feel a deep guilt for that, I'm happy as hell. One less sister I have to deal with. But the one I got here, that's living with me. Shoot. Let me go I don't want her. She like seven kids in one. She go from happy, to sad, to sleepy, to tired, to hungry, to hyper, to anything else you can think of. She's evil. And when I say it nobody believes me. But soon enough they will and they'll see it for themselves. Evil as ever. But anyways, yeah, I can't account for a time that I had gotten excited. Actually that's a lie. When I came back from Indiana, from visiting my dad and his side of the family, I found out that we were going to Worlds of Fun. I had never been there before and the fact that it was my first time going, while everyone else got to go. I didn't ride any of the roller coasters because sadly I was too short but if you count planet snoopy then I did ride some roller coasters. I still had the best time of my life, being there and having a fun time with my parents. Oh and there was also the time I went to Oceans of Fun. We went super early to beat the crowd that would be there. I had a fun time by myself. Now during this time I was old enough to be off by myself so I went on all types of water slides and I was in the lazy river the most all on my phone. It's not that hard to keep your phone dry, honestly. I also got excited when my girlfriend said yes to, well, being my girlfriend. I was so ecstatic that day. I couldn't stop smiling for nothing. My dad had came in my room and asked me why I was smiling so hard. Well dad when the girl that you've been crushing pretty much since you had first laid eyes on her says yes to being your girlfriend, you would be pretty happy too. I mean, yeah, I've had my fair share of relationships. And I'm really hoping that this one is well 'The One'. I'm tired of sitting around and being played by people who can't have a steady relationship or can't commit to just one person. Or they're just not ready for a relationship. I don't want to be lonely anymore and I truly think that she's going to be the one to make that happen. I'm going to be honest here. I love her. So much so that I think I might be loving her too much. She really does make me happy. She was able to bring light to my life without any effort. A task that many aren't able and/or fail to do. Although she doesn't maybe know, she has done so much to help me. Beforehand I was very much in my shell. I didn't really want to talk to anybody. I mean I had a friend that helped me with that but then she ended up leaving so I was back again with my isolated self. But not as much because I still had my other friends. But then they started to leave me too. So then it was just her and I and we had bonded a lot more than what I had expected for us to and I am very grateful for that. Without her I probably would still be to myself with like four friends that I talk to everyday and then maybe five friends that I would talk to from day to day. I think what's really funny is that when I do get friends, I become the most social person you'll ever know. I know it's weird for me too but I guess that's just the way I am. But still I really am thankful for my loving, caring, and amazing girlfriend. Without her, I wonder what things would be like.
