one shots ❯ joshler

cordial.

i'm such a shitty author i haven't updated in like five days

but i have a decent excuse, i guess.

listen, to keep a long story short, between my mental health getting in the way of everything, my parents arguing, me meeting my mother's new "friend" (we all know it's her boyfriend she's just being a bitch), having two chorus concerts back to back,

i have had no downtime to myself.

i feel shitty, i feel awfully anxious, my grades are dropping tremendously. i just have been having a very hard time coping with everything.

either way, i still managed to write a small chapter for you all, because you guys make me happy.

i also saw The 1975 with a close guy friend of mine (whom i think he has a thing for me and i'm hoping cause i've had a thing for him since like april and oh goodness what a flirt he was when we saw them). either way, they were SO GOOD !!!!! 10/10 would recommend.

matty was so cute.

he had a glass of wine and was smoking a joint it was great.

sorry for the long a/n. i've had a lot to say but i have nobody to tell ):

i apologize for the long wait, so without further ado, one shot number twenty seven.
(holy shit we're that far in already??)

this chapter includes a panic attack so if u r triggered by that kinda stuff i suggest you skip this one, even tho it's not really that detailed cause i, too, get triggered by reading about panic attacks.

ps it's crUCIAL that you listen to the song linked when i tell you to!!!!!

it was playing while i was writing and i started crying so um yah good luck xx

enjoy.

edit: just as i published this, i realized we hit 6k. thank you forever and ever, babies.

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Joshua is sweaty and Tyler is tired. It's nothing new, honestly. Most mornings start like this, Joshua will be shirtless smiling near the kitchen counter, his shirt strewn across one shoulder as he pours boiling coffee into Tyler's favorite mug. He'll walk the steaming mug to the bedroom and gently wake a grumpy Tyler and give him the piping hot drink and a kiss before he heads to the shower.

It's not that Tyler is ungrateful, but he wants Joshua to sleep in. He wants to roll over and wake his boyfriend up with a blowjob every once in a while. He doesn't think he is asking for too much, but Joshua is always up and running, literally running, before Tyler can even think about opening his eyes.

It's not just the morning coffee either. It's the way Joshua always holds the door for Tyler. It's the way he pushes in Tyler's chair when they go out to eat. It's the way he waits for Tyler to come home on a night out before going to sleep, when Tyler is always sleeping in bed by the time Joshua comes home.

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He mentions it to Chris. "Do you think I'm crazy for getting annoyed at Joshua for being too nice to me?"