I'm So Sick {BoyxBoy & FIN}

I Don't Care

I dedicated this chapter to @A_Wheeler because she's a fun person to talk to and she has awesome strories that you have to read! She's an awesome dude. ;) The next chapter I'll explain who him is so stay in tune! :D 

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I was walking. I don’t know where but I just walking. I can’t believe Keith say something stupid. I knew he usually say stupid stuff but this was so stupid that I couldn’t hold back. I clenched and unclenched my fists, my nose was flaring, and I felt my ears burning. I threw my book bag on the floor with so much force I broke the shoulder strap. I punched a locker and leaned my head on another. I sighed, trying to calm my breathing but Keith’s words kept coming back.

“Gabe, it’s been a year! You need to get over it! You’re just hurting yourself!”

“Gabe, it’s been a year! You need to get over it! You’re just hurting yourself!”

I touched the locker with my fingertips and sighed again, sliding down to the floor. I’m not hurting myself. I’m getting better, right? I knew I didn’t feel okay, but I’m getting better. He just doesn’t know what he’s talking about. He talked stupid.

I got up and walked slowly to the boys bathroom. I opened the door and heard noises and then a shriek. I looked up and saw a girl wiping her mouth and boy trying to fix his pants. They boy was Casper. The door closed behind me and we stood in silence. The girl cleared her throat and kissed Casper’s cheek, walking past me without saying anything.

Casper took a step closer to me. I didn’t move. I couldn’t function right. Did I just see Casper kissing and having sex with a girl? A fucking girl?

“Look, I’m sorry.” I stared at the wall behind him. I knew he wanted me to look at him but all saw a lying prick. “Actually, I’m not.”

I looked at him now. His face was turning red, his eyes were ice cold, and he took a step back. His face could actually match his hair.

“Everytime I look at you, all I see his nothing. Gabe, I’ve been worrying about ever since what happened to you but it’s like you’re numb. I tried to hug you but you back away and shake your head. Where’s Gabe? The Gabe I kissed, hugged, smiled, and laughed with? I needed you but you would always back off. I needed you to hold me but you weren’t just there. Kasey may not be the one for me but at least she’s there, Gabe.”

He cheated on me because I wasn’t there for him? What a fucking hypocrite. I can’t believe I dated this dick. I made my hands into a fist and looked him dead in the eyes.

“Oh god! Say something!” Casper screamed. If he’s done with me, I’m done with him. I say the three words I’ve been thinking ever since a year passed. He wanted to say something so I did.

“I don’t care,” I said numbly.

He gasped and the color drained out of his face. I turned around and walked out of the boys bathroom. I then walked out of the school and walked home. They don’t understand. Nobody could understand. He would understand. I jammed my fists in my pockets and let the chilly weather wrapped itself around me. His leather jacket flapped lightly around me and I almost smiled. At least I had something to keep from him.