I'm So Sick {BoyxBoy & FIN}

Singing Angels & Letting Go

Oh my gosh, the moment of truth. This is the last chapter of I'm So Sick. I'm really going to miss this story! I really loved working with it and the characters are just...wow. And their mine! That's even a bonus! Enjoy this last chapter, please. :D

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"Oh my god, do you remember when I wrote suck my dick on that's kid's car? He actually wanted I suck my dick!" 

"No way! You totally trashed his car!"

 Shay shrugged and gave me a sly smile. "I guess he liked my good looks and charming personality. It has that effect on people." 

I chuckled and shook my head. We stared in the sky silently, listening to nature's darkness. I didn't asked my brother how he thought of me. I didn't know if he still was mad about me being gay and that I used to date Casper. I just didn't want to mess the moment up.

I turned my head and looked at Shay. He had his eyes closed, his blonde and brown hair floating in the air because of the slight wind. He had his hands under his head and his right leg over his left. My brother didn't age a day. Rugged and bloody clothes, tan skin, the sparkle in eyes, and the smiles on his face made me think that he was here. He is here. But something was bugging me still. Why? Why did he do this? Why couldn't he stay with the family?

"Stop thinking, you'll hurt your brain," he said.

I rolled my eyes and stared at the dark sky.

"Shay?"

"Yeah?"

"...why?"

"Because."

"Because?"

Shay sighed and opened his eyes but he didn't turn his head to look at me.

"Depression kills people, Gabe."

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I stood in front of the mirror, dull blue eyes stared back at me. My phone vibrated in my jean pocket, letting me know that I got a text. Did I want to read it? It might be another chick I met at some party. I couldn't care less. I took my phone out and saw the name Lola. My eyes scanned over the text once. Then twice, and then the third time. All I saw was the words depressed, I just can't, dumping, and goodbye.

Goodbye...

Lola, my girlfriend for two months, was breaking up with me because I was depressed. Depressed? I don't know why. I just feel like everything was shit around me. Like I didn't belong here. Like no one wanted me here. My parents and my little brother wanted me here but things didn't feel right. My friends doesn't give a rat ass about me. All they cared about was partying, girls, and sports. The only friend I had was Casper but he always near Gabe.

I grabbed my dad's straight and flickered it around my hand. I frowned and ran a hand through my hair.

My phone ring and it showed Gabe and I smiling widely at the camera. Gabe was calling. I didn't pick up because I didn't want to tell him what I was going to do. He sent me a text.

Hey, bro. I'm coming in 5mins. I gotta tell you something.

I text, What is it? Tell me now before it's too late.

But I deleted it and turned off my phone, putting it back inside my pocket.

Casper could help my brother through this, my parents could forget about, and I sure as hell didn't need Lola in my life. What's to live for if everyone had everyone and I didn't have anyone?

I heard the front door opened and closed.

Goodbye Gabe.

I slit my left wrist...

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Shay didn't cry nor showed any type of emotion. I was lost at words. I stared longing at the dark sky, wishing I didn't ask why he did it. Depression really did killed him. Not feeling like your worthy, getting dumped, and not having anyone makes you lonely and depressed. But Shay had us. He had a family. I guess that wasn't enough for him to stay alive.