I'm So Sick {BoyxBoy & FIN}

"Casper and I"

I didn't mind dating Sterek. He's everything that I wanted in a boyfriend. I had a type but it didn't mattered anymore after what happened. I remembered dating Casper and how we were the happiest couple ever. We were kind of the perfect couple that it felt like a dream.

I was at my locker and I was trying to take out my binder because I was the only kid who had the fucked up locker. I took out my binder but my papers fell down on the floor and I wanted to kill the locker. Then this redhead, brown eyed good looking teen boy helped me. I believed in the "popular guy not helping the geeky guy" because it existed in my school. He gave me his charming smile and grabbed my hand, pulling me up. I had a squeaky voice, my hair was neatly combed, and had Pokemon cards behind my back pocket. I thought I was a dork. He thought I was cute.

I wasn't stupid or anything. I didn't have feelings for him when we started talking a lot. I didn't introduce him to my friends because I thought we were going to stay together. I was dead wrong. When we were talking, now I looked back, he would come close to me and smiled every time I made a witty joke, hug me longer than three seconds, and looked at my lips. I noticed these things but I didn't know how to take action and tell him why was he doing these things. One day he popped the question while we were watching the glowing stars in my room. "Will you be my boyfriend?"

I said yes and we kissed for the first time. I was completely happy.

Until he didn't have the guts to tell his friends or family that he was dating me.

Sterek stared at me blankly when I finished telling the story of "Casper and I". He wanted to know more about me and I couldn't stop thinking about the fact that I had a boyfriend and I should be completely honest with him. I told half of my life. The other half with always stayed deep in the dark because he didn't know what happened. That night changed my relationship with Casper and I didn’t regret it. But I do wonder what it would be like if the accident didn't happened. Would Casper still cheat on me or would he still be the caring idiot that I used to date?

Sterek grabbed my hand and rubbed my knuckles with his thumb. “He’s an ass for not telling people that he used to have an amazing boyfriend,” he said and kissed my cheek.

I rolled my eyes and pulled my hand back. “I’m not that amazing. I understand where he’s coming from. I would be scared to tell anyone, too,” I said and got up. I grabbed a cup from the cabinet and opened the fridge.

“So...you’re defending a jackass? Awesome.”

I grabbed the fruit punch carton and poured it in the cup. “I’m not defending him, I’m understanding him.”

“You understand an ex?”

“He was my friend before he turned to my ex.”

“Like your friends?”

I narrowed my eyes and shook my head. “Get the fuck out of my house.”

Sterek looked taken back. His eyes widen and his mouth was in an ‘O’ shape. He got up slowly and tried to reach me but I took a step back. I didn’t want him near me now. He bit his lips and walked out of my house. When the door slammed, I slide on the kitchen floor and pulled my knees close to my chest. Shay appeared next to me with a frown on his face.

“What was all that about? He was trying to help,” Shay said.

“He sounded jealous, Shay,” I corrected.

Shay shrugged and placed his arm around my shoulders. I leaned my head on his shoulder and sighed sadly. Sterek didn’t have to be a jerk about my life. At least I told him because I really didn’t want to. He should honored that I opened myself to him because I couldn’t. Griffin ran towards me and licked my face. He whined when he saw my sad expression. “Not now, Griffin. I’m sad,” I muttered.

He whined again and placed his head on my feet. We stared at each other for a few minutes until Griffin whined again and put his paw on my knees.

“He doesn’t like it when you’re sad. He loves you,” Shay said gently.

I stared into Griffin’s blue eyes and saw the sadness in his eyes. He must really love me if it made him sad that I’m sad. Shay moved to touch his head but his hand when through again. He didn’t mind that he couldn't touch Griffin but I knew somewhere in his stomach that he wanted to feel Griffin’s fur.

“I wished you were here,” I whispered.

“Griffin knows I’m here,” Shay beamed.

Griffin shook his head and barked happily. I smiled and ruffled his head. If Griffin knew Shay was here, he knew that someone else loved him like I loved him. Shay, Griffin, and I sat in silence listening to Griffin’s soft breathing. When my parents came home, my mom asked, “What are you doing on the floor?”

That’s when I knew my parents couldn’t see their other son who was sleeping on my shoulder and I was staring into space.