I'm So Sick {BoyxBoy & FIN}

A Teary Kiss

I watched the two best friends fought over the things they loved. Andy and Sterek tried convincing me which band was better but it was really hard. Andy loved The 1975 because of their black and white, calming, music, and the lead singer, Matthew Healy. But Sterek thought Arctic Monkeys was the "shit". They had a groovy sound, the leather jackets, and how good looking Alex Turner was. I didn't want to get in because they were getting heated but I knew they were joking around, and they looked like they were having fun. Shay sat next to me as we watched them say not-so-nice words to each other.

"And I thought you cursed too much," Shay mumbled. I chuckled and Shay bumped his shoulders onto mine.

"UGH! Gabe, would you tell this jackass that The 1975 is WAY better than those Monkeys?" Andy yelled and pointed a firm finger at Sterek.

Sterek rolled his eyes and scrolled down his phone. As he was doing that, I took my phone out of my pocket and tried looking for a song that we can all listen to. Sterek got up and put his phone on the iHome.

"I swear to God, Sterek, if you put Arctic Monkeys, I'm going to cut your monkeys off, fried them, and give to my dog as a treat," Andy threatened.

I chuckled loudly and Sterek shot me a glare. He took his phone off the iHome and I put my phone in. I pressed play and let Bastille sing. Andy and Sterek looked curiously at me. Bastille started singing and a smile started to form on their faces. Andy grabbed Sterek's and my hand and we started spinning in a circle.

"But if you close your eyes,

Does it almost feel like
Nothing changed at all?
And if you close your eyes,
Does it almost feel like
You've been here before?"

Andy and Sterek laughed and I laughed with them. When the song was done, someone knocked on the front door. Andy groaned and said, "I'll be right back. I wonder who's there."

Andy walked out of her room again but this time she closed her door. Sterek and I jumped on her bed, breathing heavily and staring at the ceiling. I don't remember having this much fun. My parents would let me go to my friend's house but we didn't know what to do because their parents were still home and we had to be quiet. Andy's parents weren't here so we could do anything we wanted. I almost forgot what having fun was after what happened, but maybe Shay was right. Maybe sending Andy was good for me. I knew I didn't want friends and I wanted to stay lonely but Andy and Sterek were different. I liked different.

"So...Gabe, right? How's your school?" Sterek asked. He put his hands under his head and sighed slowly. Why did he wanted to know about my school? There's many things about my school I wanted to say about my school but that's my opinion.

"Um, it's better than a public school nowadays. The teachers cares, the people are crazy and annoying, and they have bad taste in food, y'know?" I ranted.

Sterek smiled and turned his head towards me. "Yeah, I know. I was thinking of transferring there because Andy, and now you, go to the same school. My school is shitty."

"All school's are shitty, Sterek."

He chuckled and moved a little closer to me. I didn't mind the closeness because we were friends now. Friends. The thing I didn't want to have but now I do because I like Andy and Sterek. But something happened.

Sterek placed his hand on my cheek and stared at me. I didn't do anything. I wanted to see what the hell he was doing. My mind flashed to Casper. He used to place his hand on my cheek whenever we laid down on his bed and had nothing to talk about. He was the one who made me happy. My ex friends made me happy. But they're gone now.

Sterek leaned closer to me and hovered his lips on my lips. He kept his eyes locked on my blue-ish and brown-ish eyes. Then he kissed me. I automactically grabbed his hand that was on my cheek and my mind was spinning. My friend's friend is kissing and we're kissing on her bed like it's our house. And I just met this guy! What is this? Meet and kiss? People just don't do that!

"What the fuck is going on? Gabe! Push him away!" Shay shouted. I jumped off the bed and stood near the door. Shay ran a hand through his hair and rolled his shoulder. He only does that when he's confused and angry. I guessed it was both.

"S-Sterek, what the-what the hell? W-why?" I stammered. I'll deal with Shay later.

Sterek looked in pain and a weird noise came from his throat. I noticed his eyes were getting glassy and I quickly walked towards him, pulling him into a hug. He placed his head on my shoulder and started crying lowly. I was beyond confused. One minute he's kissing me, then the next he's crying his eyes out? What the hell? I patted his back to calm him down but that wasn't working when his cries got louder. I had to think of something before Andy came back.

"Sing him a song," Shay said quickly.

"What? I can't sing for shit," I retroted.

"Just shut the hell up and sing a song. It always works."

Shay stood next to me and pushed me closer to Sterek. I bit my lip and tried thinking of a song that could calmed him down. Oh God, if someone hears me, I'm never going outside ever again. I cleared my throat and started singing: 

"Lost and insecure,

You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor,
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me"

Sterek pulled away and wiped his eyes, hiccuping a few times. His eyes were blood-shot red now but only when you get close to his face. I'm glad he stopped crying. It hurt me to see someone I cared about start crying for no reason. If they didn't stop crying, I was going to cry because they are crying. It was a painful situation to be in. I sat next to Sterek and Shay sat next to me.

"Can you tell me what was that?" I whispered.

Sterk shook his head and whimpered.

"Will you tell me someday?" I said a little louder.

"I haven't even told Andy," he croaked. "I don't want you or her to know."

"I'm going to find out someday. I know I just met you, but I hate when someone cries."

"Everybody cries, Gabe."

I flinched. "Not as much as me."

Sterek turned his head towards me and sniffled. "It must be a great song. It has powerful lyrics."

"It does. That's why you stopped crying."

Sterek chuckled and wiped his damp cheeks. "But your singing sucks ass."

Now it was my turn to chuckle. I punched his shoulder and said, "Shut up." 

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I told Andy and Sterek bye and I'll see them tomorrow. They looked happy that were going to see me again because they gave me a big hug and smiled widely. Andy walked back inside her house. It was just Sterek and I standing outside in front of her front door. Sterek held the door open so he wouldn't lock himself in. Sterek shifted his feet and tried speaking but he couldn't form any words.

"Don't say sorry, Sterek. I know kissing me was something you did, and I'm fine with it. Next time give me a heads up, okay?" I joked.

Sterek smiled and nodded. I gave him a half smile before turning around but I was turned back around and Sterek kissed my cheek. Sterek let go of me and licked his lips. "Thanks, Gabe."

I smiled and turned around, walking away from him. As I was walking, I heard him yelled, "Son of a bitch! Andy, I'm locked outside!"

I shook my head and chuckled. I knew something was bringing down Sterek, and I'm going to figure out what and why, but why did he kiss me? If he wanted a boyfriend, he could find someone because people would love his personality and good looks. I know it's not me because Sterek was my friend. Friends don't like their other friends. I learned that the hard way.