I'm So Sick {BoyxBoy & FIN}

Fun with Andy

I sat down on a black bench near the school and the park that some of us goes to. I wasn't interest in neither one of them so I sat here. I saw Casper talking to a girl next to a tree. He didn't looked focused into the conversation yet he still talked to the girl. The girl, the same girl from the bathroom, was talking and laughing and hugging him. I felt a pang of jealously but it quickly went away when he came.

"Why did you leave? You was making a great friend," Shay said.

I looked away from Casper before he can catch me looking at him. "She'll be fine with Keith, Nancy, and Corra. She doesn't have to deal with my shit."

"She's the one who wants to be in your shit. Why do you think I sent her to you?"

I chuckled and tried not looking at Shay. I knew my brother was helping me to find friends but did I really needed friends? I just wanted to stay in my room and think about Shay and how he's not here. He could've taken to me to school, talk about his friends with me, made me laugh. But now he's on a mission to try to make me feel better. And I don't feel like it's working.

I took out a piece of paper and started drawing randomly. I felt Shay shifted next to me because he wanted a better look at my drawing. Shay knew I could draw. He thought I was the best and drawing and it was weird since my family can't draw for life. Shay said he wanted me to teach how to draw one day and I said I will. But I can't now.

"So, what do you do? Do you just sit here and draw?" Shay asked.

I felt his eyes burning in my head. "No. I think about things," I answered.

"Like?"

"Like drawing or other things that most people don't think about."

I turned my head when I didn't feel Shay next to me. I saw thin air next to me and sighed. He could've said a good bye before proofing somewhere else.

"Hey."

I jumped when someone sat next to me. And that someone was Andy. She smiled and took off her book bag off her shoulder. I wanted to go back to drawing but Andy was here and she made me feel like I was the center of attention. She always had a smile on her face when she saw me.

"I thought you were hanging out with those guys," I said dully.

I didn't want her to show that I cared she was hanging out with my ex-best friends. It's her life and she could do whatever the hell she wants with it. I knew I wasn't going to be in it. Andy nodded, but she had the same smile on her face. "They're alright. I rather hang out with you since you're like a mystery."

Now that caught my attention. "Mystery?"

"Yeah, a mystery. You don't say much yet you have a lot of things are your mind."

She wasn't kidding. Seeing Shay, had shitty friends, had a cheater that I called my boyfriend, and had a shitty birthday wasn't on my list of being a regular teenager. Plus to add the fact that I'm going crazy.

I sucked my cheek and glanced at her. "Whatever. I don't like much people."

"I can sense your attitude towards your friends," Andy concluded.

I snorted and placed the paper next to me. "They are not my friends. They were, but...something happened."

Andy criss cross applesauce and leaned towards me. "I have time, Gabriel. Why do you think I'm here?" She gave me a soft smile with a twinkle in her eyes.

I wasn't sure if I should Andy because she might tell someone but she stood up to me while my ex friends didn't do shit. I didn't understand why she didn't hang out with my ex friends but I'm kind of relief she didn't. It made her seem like she only cared about people who weren't okay and she wanted to hear their stories out. I clicked my tongue and turned my attention towards Andy.

"They helped me in ways. I was...happy with them and other things. But...something happened and now...I'm just here. It isn't so bad."

Andy hummed and placed a hand on my shoulder. "I guess you still don't trust me, huh? That's right. But when things do get bad, you know where to find me."

Andy's words calmed me down a little and almost made me smile. I heard a giggle and turned my head to see Casper holding the girl, I think Kasey? Oh who gives a fuck, by her waist.

"I see they like having sex in public. Damn, it looks like we're watching porn," Andy said in disgust.

I chuckled. I saw Casper gave me a few glances as he was kissing the girl. I scoffed and grabbed my stuff. Andy quickly stood up and we walked away from school. "Aren't you worried about your grades?" I asked.

"Pfft, hell yeah! But if my friend isn't in school, why the should I?" Andy joked.

She did have a point but I didn't have many friends. Well, no friends.

"Hey! Do you wanna come to my house and meet my other friend? He's really nice," Andy said excitedly.

This girl is too nice. I didn't want to go to her house but she was being nice and I had to do something back. For some reason, she wasn't like my ex friends. She didn't constanly tell me what was wrong and how I needed help. She acted as if I'm not...sick.

"Um, yeah, sure. When?" I said.

Andy grabbed my hand and pulled me to somewhere. "Now, dude! You're gonna have fun!"