I'm So Sick {BoyxBoy & FIN}

Session 2

I'm going to start naming each chapter because it feels like boring and I don't like boring things! Next chapter will be up whenever I can because I have two projects and a lot of notes to be written down on my notebook. Shit! Anywho, enjoy! ^-^

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Cassandra gaped at the pictures I drew. She flipped them as they were a difficult master piece. I smiled slightly because of her face. It was the same face that my mom gave me when she sees my drawings. She thinks I could seek them to people but they are more worthy than someone's money. Cassandra gave back my sketch pad and took of her glasses. She wiped her eyes and cleared at her throat. "Wow, Gabriel. That's something. They are realistic and beautiful and you even colored them in! That makes it brighter and really have that "pop" feeling, y'know?"

I nodded and my smiles widen. I haven't smiled in two days. After what happened with Casper and Shay, I was beyond fucked up. I haven't slept, ate, or did my homework. If I sleep, I'll dream about what happened that day. The messed part was, it wasn't a dream. It was flashback of my nightmare. I didn't feel like eating because it didn't looked appetizing anymore and my obsession with sweets has drained. My grades were dropping because I didn't to my homework. I had more homework because I asked my teachers for extra credit and promised to do my homework if they didn't call my parents. I out my sketch pad in my book bag and looked at Cassandra.

She looked curiously at me and asked, "have you been eating?"

I shook my head and she frowned. I didn't like seeing her frown. It didn't go with her. "You were doing so great, Gabriel. What's on your mind?"

A lot of shit.

"Nothing."

"Liar. Tell me the truth."

I sighed and leaned my cheek on my hand and my elbow on the chair's a stand. I knew we were getting closer and closer to my problem but nothing was being solved. It felt like puzzle pieces were all over the places and it's hard to connect the picture.

"I don't want to feel sick anymore," I said truthfully.

She nodded and wrote something in her notebook. Her green eyes put their attention on me. "What do you mean by "sick"?"

"I don't want to feel shitty all the time. When I'm with Andy and Sterek, I could be me because they accept me for who I am. But there's something else...more like someone."

Cassandra raised an eyebrow and moved her hand for me to keep going. "Andy has a boyfriend and Sterek wasn't to happy about it because he's protective of her. We meet the guy and he isn't what I thought he was. Sterek is going to tell her today but I'm freaking out."

"What did he do? Why don't you like him?"

I bit my bottom lip. "He tried to stab once. Then he beat me and Sterek up."

Cassandra eyes turned worried and she pointed her pencil at me. I rolled up my shirt and it had a bandage wrapped around my stomach. The swollen went down but it still hurt like heal. Cassandra gasped and touched the bandage with her finger tips. I flinched and she jumped back. I smiled and she glared at me. "That wasn't funny, Gabriel," she said.

I pulled down my shirt and waited for her to say something. I knew a feeling Sterek wasn't going to tell her. It seemed like her was afraid of her. I'm kind of afraid of her too since she almost punched a girl in the face for calling us faggots. I shivered when I thought of that word. Would my parents called me that? I haven't heard them say that word but I knew they had to think it someday. Does Shay thinks I'm a faggot? He wouldn't know what to think after I told him dated his best friend. I wouldn't be furious if my brother was dating my best friend. I would be shocked but I wouldn't get angry and disappear. I turned my attention back on Cassandra and listened to her.

"This is what you're going to do. You're going to tell Andy the truth, not Sterek. If anything happens, brace yourself and call me. I'm going to call the police and they'll come and get you and your friends," Cassandra explained.

"Wait, why are you calling the cops?" I asked.

She gave me a "duh" face and said, "he tried to stab you, Gabriel. That's assault with possession of a weapon."

I nodded and got up, collecting my things. Cassandra wrote her number on my hand and ruffled my hair. I walked out of her room and turned around with my opened. "You can call me Gabe if you want. I won't get mad."

Cassandra smiled and grabbed my chin with her fingers. I stared into her bright eyes. "Good luck, Gabe."

I flashed her a smile and walked away. I was going to do this. I was going to tell Andy the truth and get her out of this situation. Sterek stood in front of his dad's car and smiled. I glanced around and saw no Casper or Jake. Good. Sterek grabbed my waist and kisses my cheek.

"How was therapy?" He asked.

I shrugged and pulled away. We got into the truck and drove to Andy's house. "I want to tell her," I announced.

Sterek glanced at me. "I thought you wanted me to tell her."

I nodded. "I know but I want to do it by myself. I let this happened and now I'm ending it."

"Wait, what are you-"

We were at Andy's house and I jumped out of car before he could finish his sentence. I slammed the front door open and Andy and Jake were watching TV. They looked at me and Andy smiled. Jake smirked and waved slowly at me.

I swallowed the lump in my throat and blurted out, "Jake tried to kill me."