Left (Season 3): Despair.

Panglabing-isa.

Panglabing-isa.

Damn. Kinilabutan ako! Creepy lady!

Hindi ako nakapagsalita sa sinabi niya. Tiningnan ko lang siya. Tiningnan niya lang din ako. She looks so serious habang nakatingin sa akin. Then she started talking again, this time her face softens.

"This is not really a sanctuary. This is not Undead Sanctuary. This place is more of Dead Sanctuary or Hell Sanctuary whatever you call it. This place won't give you a safe shelter. This place is more like a cage that has no key. You should leave this place or you will gonna be stuck in a world full of agony, silent pleas and despair. This is not the best place for you and your baby."

What she said made me tremble. She knew that I'm pregnant! How? Shit! How?!

"Are you trying to scare me?" Sigaw ko. Pero naging mahina sa pangalawang tanong. "How did you know that I'm pregnant?"

"Ssh, honey I'm not scaring you. I'm just telling you the truth. And I just knew about it when I saw you got yourself a milk for a pregnant woman when you're picking for foods. So I asked myself if you are. But I didn't believe it at first. You look young and you don't have a bump. But when I saw you touching your stomach multiple times, I confirmed it." And I didn't even know that I've been touching my stomach unconsciously. Tyaka malaki ang tshirt na suot ko kaya siguro di niya pansin ang small bump ko.

"Well I'm getting scared!" I hissed. "And don't you dare tell anyone that I'm pregnant! Or I'll slit your throat!"

My threat feels like an empty threat when she didn't even get scared from hearing it.

"Don't worry I don't do gossiping. It won't free me from this hell or even save my life from the misery I sank into."

I don't know but every words she utters to me pierces through my heart that it actually ache.

"Bakit mo ba sinasabi yan? Sinisiraan mo ba ang US?"

"Bakit ko sisirain kung matagal ng sira."

Alam kong hindi literal na sira ang tinutukoy niya. Alam ko kasi kung may parte man ng US na sira. It could easily repair. Sa dami ng tao at lalaki na pwedeng gumawa non.

I know that she's talking about something deeper. Maybe Undead Sanctuary's biggest secret.

Tinitigan ko lang siya. Nakatitig lang din siya sa akin.

Maybe this lady doesn't like to be here too. Like us napilitan lang siya. That if she have a choice she would leave this place pero wala. She's locked here too. And if she could escape from here. Matagal na siyang wala at malamang di ko nakakausap ngayon. But I guess, it's really hard to get out from here.

"How can we escape from here?" Tanong ko pagkalipas ng mahabang sandali. Kahit alam kong imposible nagtanong ako. Kahit alam kong may sagot, hindi rin namin kayang gawin umasa ako. That maybe even a little thing can make us out from here. That we could hope from that little chance to actually escape from here.

"Kill."

Only one word and four letters is her only answer.

Umaasa ako na may ibang paraan pero ganito pala talaga. We need to kill so we can free from here.

Ngayon ko napatunayan na mahirap talagang makalabas dito, noong una pa lang naming punta mahirap na pero maswerte kaming nakalabas pero tulad nong ginawa namin kahapon. Hindi umepekto. Nahirapan kami. Michael got hurt. We got hurt when we tried to talked them out. They don't listen, cause the only voice they would listen to is from Angelina. And Angelina won't listen after what we did to this place before. We damaged it. And I guess its really the only answer to escape from here. Damage it again.