It's Just That - Jungkook & SinB

When I Realised

School had been really great for SinB. She enjoyed the first 3 weeks and nothing went off. But there was one thing actually, not related to school, but still.

"No... no, no, no! Really? Gosh... no!"

She walked around the living room, putting her hands on her head. If you think what you think it is, yes, she was talking to herself. Who doesn't talk to themselves these days anyway?

"AISH! JINJJA! IS THIS REALLY HAPPENING TO ME??"

It's natural especially for teenagers or young adults, and so it's obvious for her to do that.

"ARe you kidding me???"

Well this time, there's no chill.

"Oh God... please help me get over it. Please, please, please..."

She sat on the sofa, clenching her fists and held her head that was already to weak to show itself. She kept mumbling to herself and was already in tears.

"What should I do? Why do I have to go through this again? It hurts..." she said to herself in the midst of endless tears. Period does sucks for sure, and having this kind of feeling made it worse. As she mumbled to herself, she got up off the sofa and headed towards the kitchen. She opened the fridge and found a lot of chocolates and last night's leftovers. They were all delicious, but that's not what she wanted. She puts her hand inside and moved the chocolate bars to the side, she didn't care how messy the fridge is now. She kept waving her hands until she stopped.

"Oh? What's this?" she held out  a styrofoam package which was wrapped with a transparent plastic bag. She continued staring at it with a confused look on her face as she closed the fridge behind her. She put the package on the dinner table and opened it. Now her confused face lit up, she couldn't believe her eyes.

"Is this... what I think it is?" SinB was so mesmerised that she didn't hear her brother came home.

"SinB-ya, I'm home!" her brother closed the front door. But he didn't hear any respond from his sister, and he knew she was there. He went to the kitchen and found his sister.

"Ya! Hwang Eunbi! I'm he-" he went closer to her until he saw the package of food she opened.

"NO! DON'T! IT'S MINE!" he shouted as he quickly stole his food back from his sister's hand.

"YA! WHY CAN'T I? I'M HUNGRY!" SinB woke up from her amazement and shouted back at her brother's face.

"YA! THAT'S NOT POLITE! I'M OLDER THAN YOU SO DON'T USE 'YA' EVER AGAIN!"

"WHO CARES? I LIKE SOMEONE RIGHT NOW AND I CAN'T CONTROL IT!"

Her brother's face changed. He was really surprised by what his sister just said.

"Wait what. You... like someone? Right now?" he asked her with a i'm-not-sure-if-you're-telling-me-the-truth face. She nodded. There was a long silence after that. The siblings just stared into each other's eyes, trying to get the conversation done through eye contact.

"Okay. I'll let you eat them this time so that you won't bawl in the middle of the night again like last time." her brother broke the silence as he handed back his food to SinB's waiting hands. Of course she was happy so she hugged her brother and ran to her room. Well, her brother stopped her.

"Hey. But this is not gonna help. I know it's not gonna keep you happy, so what are you gonna do after that?" he asked her as he pointed the food with his eyes and stared back at his sister.

"Hm... I haven't thought of that. I think I'm gonna dance, it should work tho." SinB said after she looked up the ceiling, indicating she was thinking.

"That's not enough. Have you ever considered to be active in your blog? You've always love to tell stories, especially your experiences."

'I don't know, oppa. But I'll try tho... maybe."

"I want you to. Trust me, it'll make you feel better." her brother said as he went to the fridge, grabbed a soda, and sat down. "Okay." SinB said and as her brother started gulped his soda, she ran upstairs to her room.

SinB opened her room and closed the door behind her. She went straight to her desk and put down the delicious tteobokki, grabbed the chopsticks and munched the whole thing in her mouth. It took 5 minutes for her to finished it and she sprawled, looking like she was sinking and about to fell off her chair. Suddenly her mind went blank. She didn't what to do next. She could feel her feet started shaking with anxiety and lips shaking. Then she breathed heavily. Worried that the feeling might took over her completely she quickly looked for her laptop. She shrugged in her hands to her backpack and pulled out the silver and light laptop to her desk. She turned it on and waited anxiously for it to opened her tumblr site.

After spending an hour and a half in front of the screen with silence, she finally let out a big sigh.

"Hah... finally. Just send it, I don't care if anyone will give it a like or not." SinB said with her eyes half closed. She pressed the 'enter' button and the screen turned to a lighter opacity, indicating it was in the middle of posting her writing. After it went back to normal opacity, she shut her laptop down and threw herself onto the bed. Another silence for awhile, but then you can hear her sobbed as she pressed her face against the pillow.

"Oh, Jungkook... I like you so much..."