It's Just That - Jungkook & SinB

Tough Situation

"I have cancer."

It hit Jungkook right away.

After he didn't take his friend seriously, he started regretting what he had thought about her. And SinB sounded really serious, and somehow solemn, when she confessed.

But he was still trying really hard to cope with the fact, that is if she's really telling the truth.

resume texting

Jungkook: Are you serious?

SinB: Yes.

Jungkook's POV

She's serious. As much as I wanted to believe her, I hope that she's lying. Really. I hope she's lying. It's my first time to actually to have a friend who has such serious disease. Wait. Hold on. I had a friend once. Just like her... she's not the first. Maybe I should tell her about him. Yeah... maybe it'll be a good idea. I'll just wait until she finished her story.

Jungkook: Alright. Tell me how you have it.

SinB: Well. I was in the seventh grade when I had it.

Jungkook: That's really early. You were so young!

SinB: Yeah. And I can't cure it. I was planned to have surgery, but the doctor said it was risky.

Jungkook: Risky how?

SinB: There's too much risk as there was only 30% chance that I'll live.

Jungkook: Oh my god...

SinB: i drank some juice and other medicines.

Jungkook: And did it give a good result?

SinB: Well, it did reduce the pain and size. But it's not fully recovered.

Jungkook: Wait. In which part of your body does the cancer grew?

SinB: Inside my neck, right underneath my left jawline. And it's still alive, apparently.

Jungkook: SinB... I don't know what to say...

SinB: You don't have to say anything. I just need someone to listen to this.

Jungkook: Okay, if you say so. Well, I wanna tell you something.

SinB: What is it?

Jungkook: I had a friend once. He was just like you.

SinB: Really? What happened to him?

Jungkook: The doctor can't save him. And with the months he had left, he spent it really well. But...

SinB: But what?

Jungkook: We never knew about it. Sure, we noticed that he barely came to school. But he? When he had the disease? No.

SinB: Oh gosh... I'm so sorry.

Jungkook: It's fine, thank you. He never talked about his sickness to anyone at all. So, I'm glad you did.

SinB: Yeah. It took me courage to speak up to anyone. I'm also glad that I finally did.

Jungkook: Yup.

SinB: Promise me one thing, Jungkook.

Jungkook: What is it?

SinB: Don't tell this to anyone.

Jungkook: I won't. I promise.

SinB: Thank you. I'll see you tomorrow.

Jungkook: See you.

end texting

Man,she's been through a lot. Gosh... though, I'm still not sure if it's true. I dowant to believe her, and I'm trying! But... I think I really hope she's serious. I feel like I should cheer her up. Hm. It's decided then. I'll make her forget that she's sick and put a smile on her face!

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hey~ i'm sorry for stumbling here again hehe :)) and i also apologise for this one. i know it's much shorter. but if you noticed, this one's more briefed. it's short, but it sums up the point of the chapter... right? lmao i hope y'all feel the same way :)

so, about my cancer... (this is gonna be long btw, just to let y'all know)

i've live with it for 3 years now. i found out that i had it when three small pimples popped up underneath my jawline, the left side. and my mom noticed it first and it was actually weird for both of us but then we thought i'll be okay, it wasn't a big deal. but then, the pimples started to grow bigger within a few days. it grew bigger and bigger to the size of a ping-pong ball. i can't eat, i can't speak, and i can't laugh... for three week. the ball-sized tumor stopped me from making movements with my mouth. 

so that was when i'm immediately rushed to the hospital for check-up. the doctor said it was a tumor and they said it needs to be cured before it evolves into cancer. but regardless of what they said, they didn't have the cure. and with such a disappointment, we went to another hospital to confirm once again and hopefully, receive the cure. the other hospital also confirmed that it was tumor but they didn't have the cure either. then we went to one of the most prestigious hospital in town. they said they have the cure, which is surgery. it was the only way. since we already spent to much time finding other hospitals and my fatigue reduced drastically, the tumor had turned into cancer.

but gladly, my mom worked at a health product company. she was told by her friends and co-workers that I should drink their health juice, twice the normal dose... which is like drinking a cup of water. well actually, since my mom worked in the company, i've been drinking that juice all my life. but of course, for such serious disease, taking in not so normal doses of it was necessary.

and i didn't regret it. my mom didn't regret it either. i was cured within a month and i didn't have to went to any risky and expensive surgery. but sometimes i wish i died. bc u know, many bad things happened to me and i just couldn't take it. then again, after the moment where i regret that i'm alive, i reminded myself that i still have a lot of dreams and wishes on my mind that i need to make come true. so i hope you guys also use the same method!

and now to stay alive, i need to stop eating junk foods. especially instant noodles and chips. yes, it's a bummer. but that's what you get when you're sick like me (: and the reason why i'm sick in the first place was because i ate some kind of poisonous food and also the foods with msg in it. so now i'm strictly banned from eating those.

so that's basically it. the story of how i had my cancer. just hope that i don't die soon :))

and i need to remind you this: no matter how bad your day, your month, your year, or your whole life may be, you'll always have something good in the future that you might not wanna miss out! you'll regret dying more than you regret living. so stop giving up and live on as there's so much for you to receive. stay alive people! <3

thank you, take care, and bye~