It's Just That - Jungkook & SinB

Drifting Apart

SinB's POV

"SinB. Me and Jungkook broke up."

I still can't believe it. Did she really say that? Did they really break up?

No, no, no. She's just joking.

"You're kidding me, right?" She shakes her head, and that face... she's not lying. But-

"Why?"

"We decided that we should just... not be together." Okay, I'm so speechless right now. How should I feel? Should I be sorry? I do feel that way but... why do I feel a little happy? Is this a good thing?

Is this my chance?

"Oh, God... I.. I-"

"It's okay, SinB. You know..." she looks at him now. "...I never love him." What?

"After all this time, he's just on a one-sided love. He's the only one who loves. That's why I've been holding back this decision for a long time. I still thought about it, when I told him. He was so hurt as if like he was slapped. I do feel bad, but he'll be more pitiful if we keep going like this- where he loves me and I don't."

I feel a very bad mix of feelings going on inside me now. How should I react?

"And this is your cue, your time. Go for him. He's all yours."

What the- no. No, no, no. I can't, and I should tell her.

"Come on, Eunha. I don't deserve him. I can't have him... there's no chance for me."

"Oh there is and here it is."

"I'm not going for him."

"Fine. You need some time. But just remember, he's here." 

She's getting up. Where's she going? "Where are you going?" I still want to know why.

"I'll be in the bathroom. I won't take long." And there she goes. Now you're stuck in the situation where you can't talk to anyone. I feel so awkward! Ugh! You're turning sixteen and nothing should bring you down like this!

What should I do now?

It's freaking awkward. I'm still sitting here like I'm a stupid unsocial freak. Everybody's with their friends and yet I'm still sitting alone. What should I do, what should I do? Okay, now, breathe. Breathe, SinB.... wait. You have this book with you, sketchbook. Yeah, you can draw something. Draw anything.

Just make yourself happy, SinB.

end of POV

The lunch bell rang. Hungry humans bursted out of the classrooms and loud chatters filled the long hallway. Then, the sound of locker cracked open and slammed  could be heard.

But those sounds didn't bother SinB, who was still walking towards her locker. She was in her own world that she didn't care who she bumped into. She opened her locker lazily, and throwing in her books inside. She closed the locker and stood there firmly, not knowing what to do. She wasn't sure of how she was feeling at the time. Like- a mixture of confusion, sentimental, regret, and... anger. Why was she angry tho?

"Hey, SinB!"

The girl who was lost in her thoughts turns around to find- "Arin. What's up?"

"Are you going to the canteen?"

"Yeah, I am. You wanna go together?"

"Yup. Can we?"

"Of course, we can! Let's go."