At My Worst ( a Nicholas Matthews story)

You're a cheap little Whore

The new year has started. We have been officially signed to Fearless and we are heading on tour in a month in a half. This is great, touring is the best thing about being in a band. Of course there's a few down sides like getting sick, not taking showers, sleeping in small bunks under Dan and almost suffocating, and having to set up ourselves. But it's worth it to make the kids happy, and to make ourselves happy to be honest. No matter how fucking scared I am to fail in front of everyone, I still do it. I lose the fear as soon as I begin to sing.

Today we're going to begin rehearsals. I have been sent to the grocery store for drinks and snacks. So I have to get Monster, Coke, and water as drinks and Cheetos, Doritos and whatever 'healthy' snack that I can find. Pushing the cart through the aisles, I looked for the chips i have been requested to buy. It didn't take long to find them, so put them into my cart and continued to look for the other stuff.

As I turned the corner to enter the aisle, I saw someone I didn't think I would have to see again. And she saw me. I began walking in reverse to avoid having to make any sort of interaction with her.

"Wait, Nick!" she called. I didn't listen, i just continued and turned back into the aisle i was in earlier.

I continued moving backwards until i hit someone. "I am so sorry" i began to apologize as I turned around and realized it was still Lexus. "Ha Just Kidding"

"Nick! how are you" she asked.

"Terrible. i just ran into a backstabbing bitch." i bitterly answered.

"Well that was uncalled for." she said. She got uncomfortably close to me. "I miss you Nick"

"Piss Off Lexus"

"Hey, no need to be rude." she leaned on me, pushing me against the shelves.

"Get off me!" i shouted, but she didn't listen. Before I could push her off, her lips touched mine. I shoved her away. "What the hell is wrong with you!"

"Nothing. I just want you back Nicholas."

"Never gonna happen." I replied trying to walk away. She stepped in front of me. "I have a girlfriend"

"Oh yeah" she sarcastically replied. "And who is this 'girlfriend' of yours?"

"Jessica Ess." i answered without hesitation. "Don't you have a boyfriend?"

"What makes you think that, honey?"

"Because you always do."

"What's that supposed to mean?" she questioned with surprise.

"It means Johnny was right." I said "You're a fucking whore."

"Excuse me!"

"Can you leave me alone now!" i began walking around her.

"You'll never make it anywhere without me!" she yelled.

"Actually you'll DIE without me. I know it." I yelled back. "Blacklisted me only got the least bit popular because of me."

"That's not true." Lexus cried back.

"All the songs I feature in have a lot more views than the one's I don't so"

"Whatever you asshole" she shouted.

I didn't say anything back, all I did was continue pushing the cart. I just had to run into her, the one time I'm alone in public. What the hell is wrong with her? She kissed me! I'm gonna have to burn my lips if i don't want to contract sort of STD from her. I don't know why I ever fell for her. Or why I ever wanted to marry her. I picked up the rest of the stuff on my list then left.

I got in my car and banged my head against the steering wheel. She had to ruin my day. I've doing so good lately. I've barely been feeling down; just a few dark nights.

"FUUCK!" I screamed out all the anger as a woman and her kid walked by my car. She gave me a dirty look as she moved along without letting the little boy look in my direction.  

(A/N Well i got enough alone time to write a chapter even though i said i wouldn't update until 2017 here i am. Hope you guys enjoyed this chapter which was probably a lot better than my last few chapters XD.. So what did you guys get for Christmas... If you celebrate it)