"Nick, you need to get your stuff from your house." Lloyd told me. I'm sitting at the kitchen table, drinking orange juice, pretending not to hear him. I don't want to have to face Lexus. I'm afraid that she'll want me back, and i'll just let it happen. Or to be harassed . "Nick!"
"What?!" I groaned.
"You need to get your stuff. You need to officially end it with her." I stayed silent. He sat in front of me and gave me look that just said "Listen to me." I turned away. "Nicholas.." hearing my full name instead of just Nick from him made me feel awkward. Whenever he says Nicholas, it's usually cuz i broke something or i look sad and am refuse to talk. It meant something was wrong or important.
"I don't want to" i mumbled.
"I'll go with you" he requested. "You can't let this control you, Nick." He stopped for a bit. "Also you have like three- thousand dollar guitars there." i smiled.
"I guess you're right."
Later that day, I drove to my house. As we arrived, my dog, Oliver began barking at us from the back yard.
"Shh Oliver." i semi shouted. I opened the door to see Lexus on the couch, wearing a large t shirt and shorts, her hair up and her makeup off.
"NICK!" She exclaimed as she ran to hug me. I resisted the urge to hug back. "I'm so sorry about what i-"
"Save your breath, I'm just getting my crap." i said coldly.
"Nick, please listen, i was drunk. I didn't-"
"Being drunk doesn't excuse you for that." i cut her off. I started walking towards my room upstairs. I picked up some off my clothes.
"It was a stupid mistake. I still love you please just come back." she pleaded.
"NO! YOU LOST YOUR CHANCE."
"Nick please i love you"
"You will never get to love me again." I grabbed my stuff and walked out. I gave Lloyd my guitars and picked up a few other of my belongings. And finally left. I felt good about standing up for myself, but i also feel guilty and regretful. My eyes became slightly misty on my way back to Lloyd's,
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At My Worst ( a Nicholas Matthews story)
Fiksi PenggemarThe guys and I just came back from touring. It was pretty awesome but at the same time it was kinda stressful. But now that the tour has ended i'm back to spending my nights all alone. (This story is based on Nick's suicide attempt back in 2011. I...
