At My Worst ( a Nicholas Matthews story)

You ought to be ashamed of yourself

Jessica ended up forcing me to stay. I told her that i would do as i promised and take her out again, but she refused. I guess she didn't want to be the one who ruins our celebration. The guys all drank, while I was not allowed to. Anytime that I reached for the bottle, Lloyd would smack my hand and yell 'no!' At least I know he won't let me relapse into alcoholism. They didn't have that much, so they were just tipsy. Except for Johnny who was doing who knows what on the couch. But even then it was calm. No barfing on themselves, no passing out, and no ranting about random crap. I was with Lloyd and Jessica, while Dan and Adam talked across the room.

"Nick" Johnny shouted, "you're a beautiful man" well then... To be honest this is probably not a product of him being drunk, this is his weird way of being nice. It's not weird for Johnny or Lloyd to calm me beautiful or anything along those lines. It's a strange friendship we've built up throughout the years.

"Ok Johnny, that's enough drinks for you" I replied, "It's making you blind" He got up from the couch, walked up to me and messed with my hair. "Don't make this a thing our fans would love. Don't make this Mattdock. Don't make this Mattdock! The fanfics are already scary enough" I joked.

"Pfff you love those fanfics" he said, getting closer to me. He stroked my cheek "And so do i"

"JOHNNY" i laughed. "You're right they turn me on" Everyone stared at me. "I'm just joking!" He moved away.

"Nah, I'm just kidding too" He chuckled. "I swear I'm kidding! No homo!"

"You better be" Jessica gave him a death glare, but then laughed, indicating she wasn't out to kill Johnny.

Johnny put his arm around me. "Or am i?" This is not even the weirdest thing we've done. I've kissed the top of Johnny's head before, being sober. I've also done other things, while not being sober, but we don't talk about that anymore.

"You're joking and you're drunk" i stated, not really caring "You need to calm down" he took his arm off me.

"I know." he laughed. This was interesting, he should be ashamed.

( A/N Sorry that this is such a short and crappy chapter . I have some stuff do throughout the weekend and later today so i wanted to make sure I wouldn't have to take forever to update, so this chapter had no pre planning. I just typed what came to mind. Anyways I also just published another Get Scared fanfic... because i have no life.. if you guys could check it out it would mean a lot... thanks for reading)