Pregnant Little Liars

Forgive and Forget

The next day
*Spencer's POV*

I spent all night tossing and turning. I got it all wrong. Now Toby, Emily and all my friends probably hate me for life. I shouldn't have pushed Toby away yesterday. The only way I'm allowed visitors is if they visit me, so there's no guarantee that he will ever come back. I have to get out of here, and if I'm going to do that, I better start talking. I get out of bed and stand up. I walk down the hall and right to the front desk.

"Can I help you?" Nurse Annie asks.

"Oh I was uh looking for Dr. Sullivan." I say, only slightly struggling to get the words out. Just then a woman turns around, whom I recognize immediately.

"Spencer!" Dr. Sullivan exclaims, rushing to my side. "What's wrong? Is everything okay?" She asks. I lick my lips.

"No it's not, but it will be. Dr. Sullivan, I'm ready to talk." I say confidently. Dr. Sullivan smiles and leads me to her office.

Two hours later

I feel so much better now that I got everything off of my chest. Dr. Sullivan is going to try and get ahold of Toby and Emily, and ask them to come down for a visit. I'm ready to talk, and I'm ready to forgive them.

Both of my parents visited me earlier this morning. It was a very emotional visit, but all is forgiven and I'm happy to welcome them both back into my life. Aria and Hanna are planning on coming to visit tomorrow according to my mom. I got a visit from a doctor at the hospital in the birth unit. My baby boys are happy and healthy, and I'm starting to feel happy and healthy again too!

"Just got off the phone with Emily. She is on her way down here right now and she can't wait to see you!" Dr. Sullivan says smiling.

"That's great!" I exclaim. "What about Toby?"

"I tried calling him twice but only got his voicemail. I will try again later." she says reassuringly.

"He's probably at work." I say. Dr Sullivan smiles and nods before turning to leave. "Nurse Jovi wanted me to let you know that lunch will be served in ten minutes." she adds before closing the door behind her. I lay a hand on my baby bump.

"Are you hungry my little baby boys?" I ask in a high pitched, sing song voice. I missed talking to my stomach so much, and it feels so good to be able to do it again. I felt like a piece of me was missing, but now I feel like it's starting to be put back into place. At first I felt as though my whole world was crumbling around me, but now I realize that there is hope. I have my babies back! Of course I will always miss my baby Bella. I know that pain that will never fully go away, but she will always be remembered. Gone but never forgotten.

I hop out of bed, slip into my slippers and walk down the hall to the cafeteria. Dozens of plates are lined up with apple slices, carrot sticks, and a ham and cheese sandwich. The typical lunch here. They serve ham and cheese sandwiches for lunch just about every day. I shouldn't complain though, I'm almost eight months pregnant with twin boys. Food is food, I'll eat it no matter what it is.

After lunch, I'm stuffed for the time being. I ate not one, not two or three, but four ham and cheese sandwiches! The person sitting next to me made some sort of comment like,

"Hey, think you ate enough?"

"Enough to last me another hour!" I replied,, making light of her insult. She laughed right along with me. It felt good to do something other then crying, screaming, or staying silent while my thoughts beat me to death. I hear a nurse calling for me.

"Spencer, Emily Fields is here to see you." she says smiling. A burst of hope shoots through me and I'm overjoyed to hear those words. Emily appears behind her, beautifully dressed and smiling warmly. Just how I remembered her. The sight of her is too much to take in, and I burst into tears. Surprisingly, she does the same. I rush over to her and hug her tightly, still crying. I didn't realize just how much I missed her until I was holding her tight.

"I'm so sorry." she whispers through her tears.

"I'm sorry too." I sob. "I love you Emily."

"I love you too Spencer."

We stand there in silence holding each other and crying. How could I have been so blind not to notice how much Emily loves me, and how could I have been stupid enough to think that she would intentionally hurt me and cheat on me with my boyfriend?

After a few more minutes, we break apart. Emily wipes the last few tears away with the back of her sleeve.

"Do you still think I'm a stupid, fugly, backstabbing, bitch?" Emily asks jokingly. I laugh and shake my head. Then we hug again. How fortunate I am to have such a forgiving friend.

"Again, I'm so sorry." I say through hiccupped sobs. "I don't know why I ever doubted you."

"Its okay." Emily says, reassuring me. "It was a misunderstanding, but now its over and done with. We don't need to keep beating ourselves up about it." I smile and nod.

"Have you heard from Toby at all lately?" I ask Emily. She frowns.

"No not today. Yesterday I saw him sitting in his truck on the side of the road. I was working at the brew, and I went outside to clear off a table. He looked upset and angry and I could tell he's been crying. So I went over and talked to him. He said he was planning on visiting you the night before, and he was really hopeful, but judging by his behavior I figured it hadn't gone so well." Emily says, her voice trailing off.

"Oh my god I'm so stupid!" I cry, pounding my fist into the wall. "He did come and visit me, but I pushed him away. I didn't even give him a chance to explain! I just pushed him away, because I wasn't ready to face him." I say ashamed.

"Oh Spence, I'm so sorry." Emily says. "It's not your fault. You weren't ready then. I don't blame you for what you did, and I know that Toby won't either."

"But I hurt him." I argue. Emily's face is filled with compassion.

"What made you change your mind about things?" Emily asks, changing the subject.

"My mom came." I answer. "She told me what happened and why she abandoned me. I figured that if I could forgive her, surely you could forgive me. And then I thought about how relived I was to see her and how much it hurt me at first, and how much
I appreciated the fact at she came around and wanted me back in her life, so I got to thinking about how I could do the same thing. I hardly slept at all last night, but when I woke up I didn't feel tired at all. In fact I felt more awake then I had in a long time. I felt a sense of hope and peace that everything would be okay, and now I know it will be." I finish and smile. Emily smiles too.

"That's so great Spence!" She exclaims. "I think there's someone else who needs your forgiveness too."

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This chapter was so fun to write! I love how heart warming Spencer and Emily's relationship is! I think you all know what's coming in the next chapter! I should have it up by the end of the week, so be on the lookout! Love to you all!
-K