Too Different?

17

"Oh hey Luze. It's cold today so I decided to wait out for you. Behind the school parking of course." Justin grinned as the bell rang a sluggish December afternoon. Anger had built inside me and I tried my best but I couldn't anymore.

"Don't wait on me anymore." I told him, I didn't want to snap on him. I couldn't bring myself to.

"Hmm? You got a ride now? Is it a person or you got a car?" He asked, I looked down at my feet.

"I mean I don't want anymore rides anywhere with you." I said loud enough for him to hear.

"What are talking about?" He grabbed my arm gently so I'd look at him. "Did I do something?" He asked.

"Yeah." I whispered and jerked my arm away from his grip. I knew he couldn't hear so I backed away from him slowly. 

"Hold on,  we're dating right?  You can tell me anything, can't you?" Justin approached me at the same pace I walked.

"But you can't tell me everything." I snapped, I didn't want to fuss or yell so I was going to yell everything in my mind and run. "If you'd like someone better than me, you shoulda just said so! If you didn't really like me, you shoulda just said so! I know I'm not cute or a cheerleader or a sportsy girl... so what I'm a nerd?! I like comics and cartoons and I really like you, so why can't I be good enough, huh?!" I felt myself cry. Justin's warm hands grabbed mine.

"Don't touch me!" I yanked them back, my tears flooded. "I really thought you liked me... I was a bit stupid. A reject and a Popular... it'd never work. It wasn't real, was it? Go on, say it like you always do to your friends. And don't bother with me cause I bet Ginger's waiting on you!" I ran from him.

I continued to run from the school until I got far away enough he wouldn't follow. I gripped my shirt and slowly fell into the snow. My heart ached and I didn't give him a chance to speak... but I didn't want to. We are too different, and it's always going to be that way.

"Hm? Luze, what are you doing?" I heard a voice that quickly panicked. "A-Are you crying?! Are you okay?" Hunter jumped off his motorbike to help me up.

"I'm okay." I wiped my eyes and he grabbed my bag that sat in the snow.

"You must've fell on ice, I've never seen you cry because of a fall." Hunter said and strapped my bag onto his bike.

"Yeah. It hurt really bad too." He held out a helmet to me.

"Get on," I slipped on the helmet. "Today's my last day driving this thing around before the snow fully piles up to the point where its too cold. I'll drop you off." He quickly sped off towards my house after I got on.

"Thanks. See you tomorrow." I waved at him, I felt horrible. If I were going to do that, why couldn't I do it right before break? I had to do it the day before... way to go Luze.

"I don't know why I thought a Reject-Popular relationship would work. There was a reason people labeled us this way... why couldn't I just leave him alone? I hate this..." I let my remaining feelings be written on my paper.

I felt sick to my stomach as I went through the rest of the day, even to the time where I woke up to go to school. It was me feeling guilty definitely, but I wanted to shake that feeling. I was free wasn't I? A lie of a relationship.

"Luze you don't look too good, are you okay?" John asked as we walked to the school.

"Huh? Luze you're sick again?" Jeremy slapped his hand on my forehead quickly.

"I'm not sick, I've just got a lot on my mind." I said, I had the urge to write.

"If you need help, I'm right here." Summer smiled at me.

"Don't forget how you usually let it out with your writing." Emily smiled while handing me a pencil.

"Thanks you guys. But for now I'll be okay." I said and they somewhat agreed with me.

But that entire day I couldn't stop myself from writing, ideas continued to flow onto the paper. It was a good distraction from Justin... I hadn't seen him around much. When I did, I quickly avoided him, and another idea came to mind. That was how it was supposed to be...