SHE'S MINE.ONLY MINE [PUBLISHED Under Life Is Beautiful (LIB)]

CHAPTER X. |TROY STORY|

CHAPTER X

 

TROY POV

It so damn irritating to introduce myself beacause “I‘am Troy Kangnam”... yes, Im a Kangnam… and If only I’m not a BASTARD in this family I would shout out of joy, but it’s fucking so damn bad having this name.

I’m not the kind of nerd before; I’m a certified playboy and girls admire me a lot, I gumble everywhere like what the tipical gangaster is. But everything change in a glimpse of an eye, if only that event didn’t happen years ago…

When they get me to live with them when my Mom died, my father’s wife and his son accept me. Ang saya ko nun dahil nagkaroon ako ng bagong pamilya hindi tulad dati na kami lang parati ni Mama. Itinuring ako ni Tita Belle na tunay na anak at ganuon din si Clyde NUON, we become close really close for that matter he become my bestfriend and also a true brother. Mas matanda ako kay Clyde ng isang taon .

Pero may isang bagay ang hindi ko nasasabi sa kanila at iyon ay… na isa akong leader ng isang Gang. Dahil alam kong ikagagalit nina Tita Belle at Papa kapag nalaman nila ito. Pinilit ko itong itinago sa kanila but then Clyde accidentally knows it, after that he began to ask question about the Gang and pursuing me to bring him with me in our hideout. Hindi talaga ako pumayag na isama sya pero mapilit talaga si Clyde nuon kaya naman napilitan narin akong isama sya sa aming hideout.

Simula nuon lagi nang sumasama si Clyde samin naging close narin sya sa mga Gangmates ko na sina Vince, Xien, Von at Yvo. Pinipigilan ko na nuon si Clyde sa pagsama samin but he keep on seeing my Gangmates it seems that he’s enjoying what he sees kaya naman bago pa mapariwala si Clyde tumiwalag na ako sa grupo at para na rin kina Tita Belle at Dad.

I focused on studying for my dad to be proud of me at hindi ko naman sila nabigo dahil grumaduate ako with honor... but then… there’s something happened in that day that change me and break the picture of our happy family…

Clyde didn’t make it in our highschool graduation… He rush in the hospital because of a Gun Shot.

I didn’t know that Clyde join the Gang. I thought he would stop seeing them when I already quit. And after knowing that he got a gun shot, it gives me guilt because if only I didn’t let him know about our Gang he wouldn’t suffer with this. And it is my entire fault.

We rush in the hospital after hearing the news. Tita Belle keep on crying while we are waiting outside the Operation Room and Dad keep on comforting his wife. Kinakain na ako ng konsensya ko nung time na yun hindi ko kayang nakikita silang nahihirapan dahil alam kong kasalanan ko ang lahat.

Kaya naman sinabi ko sa kanila na akong ang naging dahilan kung bakit napasama si Clyde sa isang Gang. And it is so fucking late to regret what I said because Dad burst on anger, throw me hurtful words and punch me real hard and the next thing I know, is that I saw my dad lying in the floor. I caused him his Heart attack. 

I got stocked seeing my Dad lying on the floor cupping his chest and Tita Belle shouting for help tears running down her eyes and Clyde trying to survive in the Operation Room… What did I do? I felt like I cause all of this and it’s me the one to blame.

I run out of the scene not to escape but for my mind to absorb all what’s happening. I fell like suffocating. I run to where’s my feet get me along. I need to think and to be ready to face all of these consequences of my action.

Week past and I found myself walking towards a hospital room and the moment I opened the door… different eyes focused on me and gossip echoed in the room. There are many people in that room ang iba mga business partner ng Dad at some of them is their family friends.