Temporary (Georg Listing Fanfic)

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After being there for almost two hours, my feet could not take it. We had gotten on the same rides over and over. And at this very moment, I had another reason, to want to kill the guys.

"Come one, Tan. Lighten up," Alan said, laughing at me as I sat down trying to catch my breath.

"No it's not funny, how could you? You know I'm afraid of heights. And you decide to get us on a ride that does a full 360 in the air. I'm not okay," I said, pretending as if I was going to pass out. The boys laughed at my little dramatization.

"I didn't know it went like that," Alan defended himself. His comment only made me bicker with him even more.

"Alright, would it make you feel better if we brought you food? We'll even let you choose," Bill suggested. I pretended, to think about, and then nodded. Food always made me feel better. I got up from the seat and started to walk towards the taco stand near us. There was barely a line, so we got our food rather quickly. By the time that we had finished, the sun was setting and I really wanted to get on the Ferris wheel before we decided to leave.

"After this, can we get on the Ferris wheel?" I asked. The boys and nodded, as their mouths were full of food.

"Sure anything for you," Bill said, patting my head. I smiled and nodded, it was the least they could do after all those rides they tortured me with.

"Ready?" Georg asked, getting up. We all followed and nodded, heading for the ferris wheel. Counting our tickets we walked in silence.

"I need a ticket, I only have three," Tom said. The boys laughed at him and shook their head.

"Aw come on guys. Just one ticket," he begged. That just caused the guys to laugh even more. I reached into my pocket, searching for one.

"This is my last one, but if I give it to you, you have to sit with me," I teased, holding the ticket high, as if he couldn't just reach and take it.

"Thank you, Tana, and yes I will sit with you. Nice to see good people still exist," he joked as he reached for the ticket. The boys just continued their laughs. Since each cart only had two spaces, we divided ourselves, as default Tom was with me. Approaching the line for the ride, we stood there patiently as we waited for the lengthy line ahead of us to go through.

"Come on, T," Tom helped to step into the cart since my legs couldn't reach it all the way. Behind me, the other members made snark comments about my height. Finally sitting down onto the seat, I turned to flip them before the cart moved up for the next pair.

"Can I ask you something? And you don't have to answer, it's none of my business. I'm just curious," Tom asked shyly. Based on his posture, I had a feeling that it would be a question that would be hard to explain.

"Yeah, what's up?" I asked as I felt the wheel began to move higher up in the air.

"Who was Rivers in your life? It's just that at the set I could see such emotion in your eyes about the person and well I just curious," he asked. I sat quietly, thinking of what to say. I never really spoke about her, she was like my secret, the only one who knew about her was my family and Alan.

"You don't have to tell me," he once again said. I shook my head and cleared my throat, looking out to the sky.

"Umm, she's my sister. Well, she was. She emancipated when my stepfather left us. She took it really hard and she started fighting with my mother, and there were times when I would have to step in and defend my mom. She eventually felt like we were against her, and one day she came home with these papers. I begged my mom not to sign them, but my mom had enough and she signed them either way. I think that was Rivers worst moment, I don't think she ever meant it, it was more like looking for attention. I couldn't do anything and I feel like she blamed me for that. The last time I spoke to her was when she leaving and she told me to never look for her," I said sadly. I look at Tom, who just looked surprised. There was a long pause to keep my emotions in check before I continued.

"I never wanted her to leave. She's my sister and I would've done anything to make her stay, and I like to believe I did try, but she pushed me away. After a while, you just get tired of being pushed away. I never knew what she did with her life," I said.

"How long ago was that?" he asked.

"A little bit more than a year ago," I said. "I mean I wanted to look for her but I knew that result and I wasn't going to put myself in the place again. "

"You should try again. Maybe this time it'll be different. Maybe she'll realize that she needs you, just like you need her. I can't imagine my life without Bill, so I can only imagine how hard it is for you. All I can say is to continue trying, she'll answer, eventually," he said putting his arm around me. The honest emotions in the hug were present and soothed any sentiment of regretfulness.

I could feel ourselves come to a stop, we were almost to the middle.

"Did I mention that I'm afraid of heights?" I admitted. Tom laughed at me and shook his head.

"I'm with you," he said, squeezing my shoulder. We reached the middle and came to a stop. I looked out to the sky, and then at Tom. I noticed Tom was looking at me, and before I could even process anything he leaned down slightly and kissed my forehead. I closed my eyes and smiled. It felt innocent and pure. A feeling that very much invited in.

"I'm with you," he repeated, pulling me closer, as I laid my head on him.