Temporary (Georg Listing Fanfic)

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If anyone wants to listen to Chai-Give and Take. I repeated that song over and over while writing this chapter. 

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We laid there as close as we could get in the darkroom for what felt like an eternity. I wasn't sure if Georg had fallen asleep but based on the lacked movement I just assumed he did. I stayed still, the only movement was from my stomach with each slow breathe I let out. The soft sheets felt as if they were glued to my skin due to the sweat on my body. It was sticky. I wanted to get up to take a shower but I couldn't move. More like I didn't want to move. If I moved we would have to go back to the secret world we've been living in. But I knew that eventually, we would have to. I looked up from where my head rested on Georg's chest to look at him. He looked so peaceful. Sometimes I wondered how he didn't worry about getting caught as much as I did. Maybe it was a good thing. Whenever I wanted to quit he would convince me that it was going to be fine. His certainty and calmness always convinced me. Today was no different. Slowly I turned around to get ready for a shower. Before disappearing into the bathroom, I looked back to see his tranquil state, deciding to leave him be I went in by myself.

My hand twisted the shower faucet in attempts to find the perfect temperature of water. I took a step inside the shower. The hot water massaged my skin as I just stood there in the middle of the small space. It was always like this. In the moment, I was fine and happy with him. Nothing could stop us. Nothing could bother me, but the afterthoughts. Yet even that wasn't enough to make me stop running back to him. I was too caught up in my thoughts to hear when he walked in. It wasn't until I felt his hands on my shoulders, moving my hair to the side so he could fit his head in the space between my neck. I closed my eyes waiting for him to say something but nothing ever came out. Instead we just took a shower and that was it. No words were said. No suggestive touches like he always tries. But it wasn't detached. No this was different. For the first time since we began sleeping with each, I felt like we were actually a couple. Even if it felt like that, it wasn't. Just like he did, I said nothing and just let the feeling linger in the room.

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Even though the sky was dark, it was still pretty early in the night. We didn't have a bus call for another two hours. I wanted to stay in the room until it was time but Georg suggested that we go to the park near one of the shopping centers. Currently, we sat on a bench, watching as the local people walked by. I sat there next to him, as he talked about something from his childhood. We often talked to each other about life, our families, work, and pretty much everything. It was no secret that I was close to him, I think everyone on this tour knew that.

The feeling from before had followed us to this spot. It made me feel comfortable even with the circumstance we were in. It must have seen like I wasn't paying attention to him. Maybe that was what caused Georg to give me a quick kiss.

"Are you crazy? Someone could have seen?" his action has more than surprised me. He just chuckled at my hysteria. I rolled my eyes at his passiveness. I looked to the side to stop myself from smiling. I knew someone could have seen but the feeling my heart was warm. Who knew such a small action could make me so weak? Georg was always super attentive to my reactions whenever he did something. So when he pulled my head to face him, giving me two quick pecks it was so surprising. This time I could turn my head fast enough. The smile I gave hurt my cheeks.

"I spoke with Diana today," he sat up straight, no longer facing me. I sat there unsure of what to say. How would I even respond to that? Turns out I didn't need to since Georg had began talking again.

"She talked about something that happened in her family," he tone sympathetic towards her. I had a feeling where this was going and I wasn't sure I wanted to stay there but this time I actually couldn't move.

"She said she needed time to sort it out. She said she wasn't sure if she still felt the same way," I wasn't sure if he was telling me this because it hurt his emotions or something else.

"I think you more than anyone else knows that I haven't fully loved Diana for some time," he said. I felt as if he was accusing me of being the reason that he wasn't all there for her.

"I should have begged her not to break up."

His words pierced my heart. The feeling that was there before had drifted with the wind. I was afraid of what he would say next. But I still couldn't more. Maybe I deserved this. Maybe it was time for someone to set me straight.

"But when in that moment all I thought about was how much I wanted to be with you," he spoke with sincerity. The tears that had been threatening to spill, dripped down my face without permission.

"What?" my voice was barely a whisper.

"All I could think about was you. The way that you smile when you hear something good. Those nights that we spent together. Your laugh. Only you," he looked at me this time.

"I just want to be with you. No one else, just you," his eyes beaming into mine. I could feel a smile creep onto my face.

"There's that smile I was talking about," his fingers grazed my face softly, pushing my hair behind my ear. This time it was me that leaned in for a kiss.

"I'm gonna take that as "yes, Georg I want to be with you too,"' he joked. The feeling from the hotel room grew inside me again. Kara sevda. Blind love.